Oh my god i was shocked and impressed and really humbled.
I heard. "She does not want to disappoint me"
In my heart I gently need to turn this type of thinking around, everything in the lifestyle, in the treatment plans is aimed at your survival. just making a sincere effort is really enough, this diet is so hard for example. At midnight my ketones 0.4 and glucose 5.9, thats after a resonably ketogenic meal and 2 hours walking. Yes better levels very desirable, but its a base and I willtry harder tomorrow. My clients are better ketogenic successes than myself today. I am the example of failing but getting back on the the horse and trying again. Ketosis here I come.
My crazy lifestyle is NOT ABOUT any pressure, its got to be joyful and fun!
My crazy lifestyle is NOT ABOUT any pressure, its got to be joyful and fun!
So what went wrong today for ketosis ? Simple NOT ENOUGH OIL, TO MAN Y CARBS
So as i said LET GO OF EXPECTATIONS. OF DESIRES. GET INTO A SPIRITUAL PLACE WHERE LOVE PERVADES YOUR EXISTENCE. IF GOD CALLS ME I COME JOYFULLY, BUT I STILL JOYFULLY STUDY. LEARN. EARN. FIGHT . MOTIVATE AND INSPIRE HOPE. ITS A WONDERFUL THING TO DO WITH MY EXTRA EXISTENCE . WHICH IS TRULY A WONDERFUL GIFT FROM GOD. IF YOUR BLESSED TO BE METASTATIC THEN MAYBE YOU ACHIEVE NED. Did you see yesterdays studies 15 % long-term remission with dc and advanced checkpoint antibodies. Does that inspire hope.? Without all my extras.
So i enjoyed my most wonderful day of being NED based on imaging, but the markers went up from 196 to 224 cea. I am off to the ashram asap, but tomorrow the people mover moves the team to the immunotheraputic centre of my universe. Where GOD Thomas Nesslehut and prof deliver life saving dc vaccines. I can say this. Its my opinipn . Listen to me. Have faith in your immune system. Do NOT destroy it with systemic chemo . COME NOW. COME FAST. THESE SENTIMENTS IN THE HEART OF EVERY IMMUNOTHERAPIST. BUT THEY DARE NOT UTTER THIS UNDENIABLE TRUTH LESS THEY BE PROFESSIONALLY DESTROYED BY ONCOLOGISTS WHO WORSHIP CHEMO DRUGS LIKE THEY ARE GODS.
Now regarding the slight increase in marker very serious , going into overdrive, unlikely I can go diving. I wish that I had had avasatin with TACE.
Another amazing ketogenic dinner at phillippes ketogenic cafe. Now i walk in my beloved friend daves stunning black boots. I walk from 10 to midnight. Watching the chilly night unfold, sending love to my universe, too tiarnia daves most beautiful daughter. Our love and spirits never die. We are immortal souls and heaven is so real to me.
So i walk and walk and walk. Step by step on the coldest night with my scarf. Gloves and beany . Burning away the glucose. One day i will shake thomas seyfried hand. The ketogenic pioneer for us desperate and committed believers.
Say a prayer for shar . She suffers so much from tace . Prof vogl takes you to the edge to save you. ALAS NO PAIN NO GAIN SO TRUE WHEN YOU COME LATE.
I SEE A CLEAR LIVER FOR SHAR. I FEEL IT. BUT THE CHALLENGES ARE LIKE EVEREST FOR SHAR. INDEED FOR ALL OF US METASTATIC DREAMERS.
Dream and sleep well. I will.
Love.
Pete
the easiest thing in the world, i am dead at home without this medicine and the lifestyle.
Your
I love my daughter, my son, my wife, but my life is here in Germany trying to stay alive and helping others with the same dream! The little spider lives, so are we.
Oh and dreaming of doing a documentary.
Pete
Shar asked how I cope away from my kids, my wife
I am still struggling to get disease control trip8, despite clear looking scans. clearly something is going on. just today the dr said no to extra markers for shar , i will never disagree with a dr openly, but god i cringed, my client set me up, how can i challenge the dr ego when i need there cooperation. the skill to make this medicine work beyond your comprehension, every political and clinical trick in the book and then some.
Email from daughter
A guy just had a car crash a few streets away
Let me tell you a story
He smashed into a tree ripping it almost out of the ground by its roots and shaving the top of it off before the rest of the tree landed a few metres away. The car skidded across the road before coming to rest at the top of another street.
The guy survived
And so did the tiny orb spider hanging by a thread on the edge of where the tree snapped.
The end
Life is always fun in connells point
We not going to be sleeping for a while
Email to daughter, I am so impressed by her sensitivity
Your lovelly words may inspire one desperate soul
Hi mel ,
Can I put your story on my blog.
Title THREAD OF LOVE
Can I put your story on my blog.
Title THREAD OF LOVE
My daughter the writer, wrote this. Real life, real strife the stuff of legends. Shar has a thread of hope, the worlds best oncologist gave her that thread of hope when he said remission is possible.
The little spider lives.
The rat lives.
I am the RAT.
Come to Germany, heal, be transformed into a RAT, its fun, its expensive.
Humanity is way over rated, if God can save the littlest Orb spider, what about us.
Are we all not hanging by different threads of our choices and attachments.
Maybe we detach and find God, maybe we can truly heal.
Maybe god will grant us the courage to cut the threads that attach us. That we can loose our attachments and really know God.
Enlightenment is healing, our power humbling , that we waste our power tragic, but that is life.
Cheers,
Pete
Pete
I love my daughter, my son, my wife, but my life is here in Germany trying to stay alive and helping others with the same dream! The little spider lives, so are we.
Unless tomorrows markers are another miracle, well I will be unlikely going away scuba diving with my friends. no expectations just positive healing actions.
