11.the 10am flight out of sydney meant the kids and wife took me at 43kg bags full of medicines to airport.
the 8 hour flight to vietnam I filled with movies and prayer. I am back in healing mode, seeking another miracle for aggressive growth and the highest cea ca199 ever.
I had a long stopper vietnam and enjoyed traditional cheap 1 hour airport massage for 30 euro and delicious traditional Vietnamese food courtesy the airline.
I slept at gate and was last passenger on plane. a good flight with exit row. a good sleep, and another sunrie as we landed frankfurt 6.06am, customs, baggage, car hire all went smoothly and I made it to prof vogls 8.15am.
a big wait, I laid down on leather lounge and drifted in and out of sleep, its 9.33am, they say mr trayhurn cabin8, you know the routine.
I sign prof vogl paperwork, we chat quickly, he says we treat people not tumour markers. he said it sounds active. That's the truth, that's all
its going really slow today. delays mri, delays getting to the table. this is putting the ipt with dr siebenhuener under pressure. but I am grateful to be squeezed in at last minute.
I say a prayer for my family and friends with every meal. I see the partners and support people waiting with those hopeful souls lucky enough to find and finance prof vogl. alas few are long term players, miracles as he calls me. this heart breaking reality I keep to myself. the spouses have hope, god help them. I am grateful my wife is home, living her life, not influenced by the day to day drama of my survival.
I think back to the 2 hour sunrise walk on the farm, on my wife's birthday. magic frost everywhere, birds singing, as we walked, and talked. in a peaceful place our conversation easy, not strained as at home with all the baggage from our past that kills our future and ruins the present.
so I thank god for this life, this moment and the truth I am loved, I have lived a miraculous life, that with his blessing I may continue.
we look at the pictures, we find a solution.
says the prof to another hopeful patient. words with hope. That's what vogl spells hope. maybe tace vogls way could replace all systemic chemos or most.
but could our health systems afford this solution? so many cancer corpses kept alive, draining society of its wealth.
the cancer free, generally want more, more of everything, more money, more time, lower taxes.
the realities of this world seem ludirous and tragic as I sit in my gown in cabin 8 waiting for more life, more love, more kindness. I have prayed, written, done yoga breathing.
my patience a useful virtue, a survival skill.
I have everything I need. no 3bp in tace, just gcmaf today as an add on.
prof vogl marked pet scan and his imaging disease sites, he describes tumours like grass, not solid. I think has good implications for my antiangiogenic therapies of the last 3 weeks, ie gcp, bovine cartlidge , gcmaf of course.
clearly the at home, sydney protocol was not enough, but look at what we learn from this type and style of disease progression.
the 2 vials goliec deployed in tace, I suspect worked as first erection in months at night, it woke me up, strange but nice. I remember what sex used to be. but I share this to make a point about nitrix oxide and macrophages that prof ruggiero shared in one of the countless seminars.
can you see why my knowledge, helps me to have hope, to stay positive. and lets face it, beating peritoneal metastatic is not a piece of cake. and yes I am in ketosis.
I don't regret the one delicious piece of cake I enjoyed on the recent farm holiday for my wife she 50th birthday, but god if that's the cause of this peritoneal tumour explosion, well you have been warned that adherence to the ketogenic diet is unforgiving. I suspect the cause of this tumor explosion the high crp from arm infection.
we are dealing with new rapid disease, the heavily escalating cancer markers prove that.
when I left a month ago cea 57, on arrival 540 plus, that's a 500 point gain in a month. looking forward to nesslehuts ideas and latest innovations.
the joy I live to ask my boss, what now, last dc failed to control, now ipi, nivo and keytruda on the table, and getting kopic, hall Wang removab plan into gear.
Targetted ndv also planned next tuesday, but I need dr thaller buy in.
also pdt planned as well, lets hit these surface dwelling tumour cells as hard and fast as possible.
I shaved and showed to meet the boss, how many bosses have miracle employees?
I got up 5am fresh, did yoga, and now I drive to duderstadt, for more german magic.
we all do our best each day, I share because I can, these therapies are just another way that so far works for me, may your day be successful.
love,
pete
ps someone with a private jet at frankfurt airport got taced, they are not doing all the magic, funny cancer , death is the grest leveller.
pps oh and a small 3mm tumour in liver, I grow it for biopsy and next generation testing.
