Oncologists love James Bond but I am truly Licenced to Love not kill
The licence to live is printed on my flesh written by red tumour cells.
Is it true that oncologists have a licence to kill?
So I'm back in intensive care the pain is excruciating but manageable I have not seen the surgeon yet but I hear op went well. I'm not allowed to really eat because the risk of bleeding is considerable. But I did sneaking to big mouthfuls gcmap Yogurt and I note that to Viles 2000 nanograms of gcmaf protein was deployed to the liver lymph nodes . So things are as good as they can be except the one complication was laproscopic was impossible so they converted to a full open liver resection but at least they tried. Oh and we did the preop ultrasound and they confirmed op plan.
Oh and they hooked into my jugular vein or the vampires got to me.
I pray my tumour is on the way to dr nesslehut. Joyfully meditating like a little Buddha on drugs . The nicest surprise was that my intensive care nurse is the same sexy fantastic caring triathlete who has just returned from 3 weeks holidays. I have got my gc-maf yoghurt starter kit and colostrum with me in intensive care and I will make my own probiotic yoghurt using a spare urine container and some warm milk. I'll bet you no one has ever made their own GC maf probiotic yoghurt in intensive care themselves . I doubt very much I'll make either of the flights I have booked home to my family and friends but I will do my very best to heal and leave my fate in God's wonderful hands. After all as I constantly say our best is enough in fact it is perfect.
After the Yogurt is cultured I will be sending some samples 2 desperately ill cancer patients isn't that cute I'm in intensive care making yoghurt for friends so that God has to heal me so I can help others. His will be done, im at ease going on the long first class flight to heaven, it takes an eternity.
Don't tell the health system management or this hospitals management that I'm making terribly dangerous weapons of mass salvation known as GC maf probiotic yoghurt. My absolute faith in the power of these bugs . In gc maf and in my own healing potential is as unshakable as it was when I started healing on the 29th of May 2010 . Remission from cancer here i come.
Ive got the urge to pee the lights are dim and you know what must happen. These urine containers are a blessing from god as well as life as well as pee! My new nicknane could be gcpeete a combination of gcmaf pee and pete.
This wonderful veteran supernurse actually found a vein after 10 minutes and only one other attempt she's retiring soon and dreams of going to Sydney . Gods angels are all over this earth. Are you one?
These germans are absolutely crazy about football I'm watching the World Cup right now in intensive care one of the other patients who's been in intensive care for weeks is jumping up and down with passion for his sport and country .
A life with no passion is no life at all and maybe his intensive passion is the most healing thing. in this Hospital certainly his Joy of soccer is contagious as I hope my joy of healing is.
My neck is itchy where the vampires suck my blood. But now im a cancer vampire and will enjoy eternal life with jesus! I just decided to start early on earth.
So at this very moment my macrophages and dendritic cells are making within me the world's best cancer cure for free and that is the way it should be .
I'm doing oral vitamin C now.
I don't get political often or maybe my entire blog is a political statement you decide but i have the fantastic German flag over my bed and I carried it into the surgery and all of the Germans loved me because I said I love Germany and they know exactly why in fact they all remembered me from my to previous liver resections.
So the United Kingdom has left the European Union well that's god's will a bit like my wife not wanting me it's simple. so be it.
But beneath the surface the European union's stance on genetically modified foods and pollution was always going to galvanise extreme political forces against their courageous stance. Greed is everywhere and conspiracies abound it is not impossible the exit from the European Union was influenced by the anti GMO stance in Europe. My Heart Breaks because now many people in the United Kingdom suffering from terminal illnesses will have less access than before to the world's most advanced healing medicine in Germany alone. And remember the cruelest pressure little emily parents are under from uk authorities. No big brother, sure!
They may not win the football World Cup but to me they have won something far greater my heart my devotion and my gratitude they have won the alternative cancer championship. they are the world leaders in hope for the dying and it's the same compassion they have for homeless refugees that sets the German people apart from the rest of the greedy world and the greedy United Kingdom.
Remember I'm in intensive care and I say god bless Germany and God Help the rest of the world.
The main difference between the famous James Bond secret agents Licence to Kill and modern conventional Oncologist treating stage 4 disease is that James Bond Licence to Kill is issued by a secret government department where as the Oncologist Licence to Kill is issued by the pharmaceutical companies vaya lobbying Western governments. Dont believe me goto any cemetery.
I love to play on words that I was simply licensed to survive but it doesn't go far enough who wants to just survive day after day with no energy and no hope like most of the bravest and suffering chemo patients I know. I pray they all make it. But i begged god to wash the dishes. Whenvyoucget off your ass miracles happen!
You see just because they say we have a terminal illness doesn't mean we have to lose all of the attributes immediately of the living as if we are getting ready to die. But its clear chemo fits a politicalxsocial agenda. Work.pay taxes and then fall fail and fie fast on morphin. Think about it.
Clearly it is echoed throughout this blog that I strongly desire to have the best quality and quantity of life possible and that I undertake all and any experimental and alternative and conventional therapy that will achieve that goal plain and simple.
So as I've said 1000s of times on this blog that love is healing and that life is precious so I much preferred to have a licence to love. to love life itself and therefore god , my friends , nature and the truly beautiful people that I get connected with. My yoga taoist secret is to retain all love im given thus expanding my heart and my capacity to love heal and life in bliss.
What is remarkable is that as opposed to physics like attracts like in terms of human personality traits and as I said to a beautiful new friend only yesterday that any attributes they find in myself that they like or admire or love is merely the faintest echo of what is truly within them. so it's a privilege to share this boundless hope this precious energy to survive and my journey .
The bliss that I talked about so often is truly real as i truly heal. the true deal is the pain on this journey is so profoundly real in so many respects physical and emotional. Its clear but over the years of this seemingly never-ending Germany I meant journey but it's a good play on words so I leave it. Ive increasingly developed my desire and capacity for love and therefore healing in the hardships I've endured but google again says enjoyed. Which is also truly true as I have deliberately looked intensely for any joy in all the good and the bad experiences and as I seek Joy I find Joy and it's my intention to live with Joy every breath that God is gracious enough to give me.
Maybe Joy looks like the beautiful woman in the photo on my lap. Her name is not Joy by the way but her kind warmth and compassion lingers in my heart.
What I truly admire in my lovely young friend is not her beauty which is real but the love she has for her father with cancer and the time and effort you put into his care. I imagine my daughter doing the same for me which she does when she makes my infusions.
Its not my physical impotence that breaks my heart or my soul but my larger spiritual impotence where I cannot share effectively and help others due to my own limitations. You see the alternative and experimental medicine that constantly saved my life can really work for others as well but they need the money and the approach. All my alternative friends who have missed surviving by the slimmest margin taught me these most truly valuable and precious lessons what do you think motivates and guides me. what must seem to readers my spontaneous and reckless approach to Therapies is built on vast research and experience. On the suffering, loss and death of my heroic friends. I may in the end succumb but not with a good showing but then i may prevail and then this tale is really just starting. You see the desire for love, for hope and healing the most powerful motivators of humanity.
Simply ive done more alternative therapies than any other patient and thats why i must live, im determined to live less for my own life but the lives of oh so many dieing seekers of hope.
I touched again on my impotence, but not physical and not spiritual but a more expansive concept as applied to mankind. The flacid impotent humanity as we race towards the annilation of our true collective potential . We are what we are but our potential elusive. The current elections reflect our vast potential.
I know clearly ill survive when humanity says it's impossible so trust me that man's limitless potential is before us not behind. Its a beautiful vision that warms my heart like my friends smile and my yoga teachers strong hugs. And when i behold beauty around me i see god, not in glorious bodies but in love of a father and love of a baby. All love is sacred.
But as some of you may gather my brain is a survival supercomputer processing every single thing I have learnt and experienced in the last 6 years to keep me alive with improving health and the best chance of long-term survival of long-term life and love. I still completely reject the concept of full strength chemotherapy given systemic .
you may see photos of me scuba diving , smiling and today you'll see a photo of a precious memory a young beautiful loving angel who was sitting on my lap and what's impressive is that in her the Beauty on the outside is reflected inside 4 she lived in the apartment caring for her father who had a similar Cancer to me and I was truly touched by the love that she demonstrated.
So i wear the james bond laser watch to surgery. I had some chlorophyll and water when i should not before surgery. Rules are at least meant to be questioned, sometimes bent and opps with me often broken.
The bliss is even more intensive in intensive care.
Thank lord for this life and our truly never ending miracle. Reflect on that!
ABOUT AWARENESS
Thanks Vanessa James im in intensive care on fantastic drugs. The ostrich with head in sand only sees sand even if he makes an effort to open his eyes. The greedy with head in a bag of money only see money. The fool with his head up his butt sees poop.
When you open your eyes and see the suffering. I see gods invitation to help not profit.
These drugs are fine
