So Gofundme please if you like daring and mystery and adventure.
I reviewed my digestive system. I've identified the precise time when I lost vagus control about 2 days post tace 50.3 when fecal incontinence occurred. Now I know why this essential cascade into dysfunction and the associated suffering is the natural culmination and essentially inevitable until the new hernia repaired.
So knowing what's going wrong means I can give a little bit of mind and body work to really attempt to reactivate the nerves using some elements of quantum neurology
Our bodies are really amazingly complex wonderfully so in many respects and having a good time to experience my challenge is to research my solutions to let my brain on one hand here and on the other hand go in search of solutions to keep me alive it's kind of remarkable the power of the healing directed brain.
That I have the energy to make it to Frankfurt yesterday get my passport renewed and make it back to the hospital and meet Dr ks amazing daughter and then today I had no energy and slept all day except for waking for meals. But I really did need all the sleep and rest I had today as I've been intensely researching interesting clinical options beyond surgery.
So the most trivial seeming issue symptom undoes and frustrates the most advanced immunotherapy potentially. However I have no visibility with new imaging I have no visibility with regard to updated markers as blood has not been able to be collected do two dysfunctional Port dysfunctional veins and in capable but well-meaning doctors yes I've been in hospital 6 days take it only take like once which was on arrival believe it or not and they attempted 5 separate times
Now I will still trust them with the surgery I have no option but I just made the observation they cannot get blood out of this stone and I've asked but I don't compel or pressure it's not worth the nervous energy or ill will on my side that complaining generates I insist on hitting the operating table smiling myself and those around me smiling.
What's pivotal is fixing the hernia and the laproscopy peritoneal review the metavectum tumour sample the intraoperative ultrasound with contrast and then of course the professors assessment and his offer of curative surgery in subsequent days or the lack thereof will all be pivotal factors in my clinical course going forward and whether or not the dream of an Indian pilgrimage is a dream to come true or a fantasy 2 fantasize about.
The inspired life Ted x this me. I was adopted.
Highly sensitive Ted x this me. Our world is a shade brighter because I exist still. This is a beautiful talk I am a HSP.
The French kiss Ted x settle all martial arguments naked in bedroom or it will become the boardroom.
Hsp when someone cries I taste salt. 50% of hsp can be men. We experience world in a more vivid way. Its genetic trait so my eyes are not too blue. I am not too extreme as the Swiss Angel claims. I am me.
My son and daughter are HSP also. Can my friends in Sydney consider this when they love them.
So I chase butterflies and admire a truly beautiful sweet smelling drop of dew.
What's really happening to the tumour burden in some respects in essence is unknowable as even imaging is inconclusive or where the amazing powers and potential of the therapies I have unlocked so I am really on this roller coaster ride going up and down and sideways with no visibility of when or what my fate will be except that the next breath is exceptionally fine.
I have developed the approach to live with is a wonderful uncertainty because in that uncertainty Lies the seeds of my immense hope.
I treasure these uncertain moments of hope filled with my unique debatable irrational optimism.
You see I feel success in this wonderful bedridden fatigue as its mediated by well educated primed tcells with focused tcrs as evidenced homogenous nature and character manifest tumour burden as shown on my youtube channel. See secret contrast agent.
I maybe tumour free Xmas or dead.
Monday's feedback essential and this little hernia has a silver lining as indeed does Dr Death as its the pointer to stemness features of my metastatic burden yet to be elucidated but to even to be glimpsed at a truly unique privilege.
I'm seeing cancer immunology like Amstrongs first step. That foot of man on the moon we all gazed upon. And so as apes in the forest and even as slugs frolicking at the tidal edge those BILLIONS of years ago in our magnificent finite past.
So our evolution our growth unfolds.
And here as we gaze at man's small footprint on our friendly moon whose gift of tide and movement gave humanity this existence and its ever unfolding genius.
So I scuba dived with Buzz Aldrin in another universe in the Greater Barrier Reef in another life and another time and I was another man entirely. If fact then I was a happy whale. OMG I evolved from a whale to the man I am.
So as I touched the man who conquered our Moon with his own daring courage. I thank you my friends for sharing my journey and keeping me company thus far.
And maybe I can give you a small gift a thank you if you will permit me.
Of what I See or that which I alone can glimpse.
My journey offers me privileges to view the human soul. And to view the wonderous electrical universe within us like the sci classic fantastic journey where the untold beauty within us calls to me. See the secret contrast videos.
My tumours are like brightly glowing suns shining brightly in there last moments of there existence in the heart of my liver exploding and vanishing.
And alas maybe they are like me soon to fade and die. Or will I fly high in the sky. ?
I try.
I sigh.
Good bye.
I will live and our future is bright and brilliant as we see it we define it.
A dew drop called me out of my peaceful slumber to this awareness and my BLISS.
So can I walk the 5 meters to the hot bathroom to flush out some nk cells and do another enema.
Walk or crawl ?
I'll walk tall and fall if its Gods will.
He may hold me up! or an angel will poke me with a wing.
GOFUNDME and watch the security guards develop compassion.
I am after all a unique invitation to grow our awareness of this life if you glimpse my journey as I share my miracle. Yes starting red laser therapy.
