getting blood out of iv in foot took about an hour, my arm viens are stuffed.

the joy of this long life on borrowed time and money.

so my next dc vaccine being made and blood sugar going to lab for cancer markers and ip10.

sweet dreams world, thanks for caring...

6 hours driving today, fra duderstadt fra.

then tonight took a friend to hospital.

I like the german health system.

doing pd1 keytruda next thursday, 1 day before dc and tace on friday.

very exviting stuff monday, tuesday and wednesday, too hot for blog

dr nesslehut shared inspiring story of ipilumimab and ndv saving boys life.

hope is all we have, hold it tight my friends.

I have so much hope, I must be crazy.

for those of us that dream impossible dreams, then dream them with all your heart and soul.

may god answer our prayers and full fill our dreams. his will be done.

to die and go to to heaven wonderful, but to enjoy heaven on earth as long as possible even better.

another day, another miracle, I am blessed.

the bliss and the dream continues.

do you see the box of blood? for the dc vaccine? 200ml, .

I was faint after 2 hours oncothermia and infusions.

http://m.clincancerres.aacrjournals.org/content/6/4/1347.full

so a relaxing day at home munich, a walk to the lake, a swim, and gazing into beautiful eyes, her name leah.

she is 8 months old, and full of smiles. the best medicine is love, all babies are adorable. so innocent. my kids are well loved by parents and friends and god., all is as it should be in this universe.

to feel this peace, when life is so fleeting. well its intreging me.

in your darkest hour let your courage shine as a beacon, like a lighthouse to the lost, scared and dammed.

the gcmaf yogurt set perfect, as is gods love.

share my delusion, the bliss, is like the sunsets warmth, healing and peaceful.

Treatments hardest ever. I am blessed beyond belief as indeed we all are. Cancer helps me to say thanks.

I asjed jy son how are you? Fabulous his immediate answer. Me too i said. 

Tacev28 today went well 1 billion ndv deployed and 3bp to liver.

God grant our spouses peace strength courage faith wisdom and hope with left overs directed to kids then us miracle seekers. 

Jesus heal us all.

Amen

Lots of love pete

Ps just saying highest dose ever 50ml a billion viruses tartetted by worlds best, vogl. I am scared and confident. I must be nuts. Thats been well established and maybe a grave genius. I meant to say brave not grave. Ironic if you think about it.

Pray for torkel especially for urgent miracle

phil; has left a new comment on your post "certainty of uncerainty":

"I went the cancer meeting, the very alternative one. but I say the death, suffering and pain of standard cancer outcomes is NO ALTERNATIVE FOR ME, OR ANY RATIONAL HUMAN, when so many better options".
Hi Pete, it sounds like you're still having a rough time and still can't accept that standard cancer treatments often work for many people. 11+ years and counting. Quality of life is very good. While one needs to do what they feel is right, I still fail to understand how bad mouthing someone's choice helps anyone.
I wish you well.
Phil

this is a really good comment, for a start I am so glad that some patients benefit from standard treatments, which is often chemo, surgery, radio.

at that meeting this brave lady was sitting, I arrived late, I had just come home to sydney and shared about trying the latest pd1 drug keytruda and other therapies. now its unlikely any of these alt inclined cancer patients will get to germany, mainly financial reasons. they are intensely interested and I speak to much trying to offer some hope, that so many things can be done to tackle cancer beyond standard.

at the end this beautiful lady walked in so much pain, my heart breaks at all the possibly avoidable suffering so many suffer where standard fails.

the cost of personalised alternative impossible for our society , government and not even culturally acceptable to many.

its just my challenges mean I got to many doctors and clinics in germany, I see often so much incredible pain , suffering and hopeless ness here in the clinics. just today a daughter grabbed me after my 2 hours oncothermia, her mum in agony dieing, not rely responding. the daughter helped me months ago when I had a flat car battery.  I offered to help then she said. she asks me out of love for her mum in desperation behind her brave composed face. I give her a hug and kiss, I offer gcmaf yogurt cultures.

she is not responding to the clinics best efforts, I think of all the things to do and try. I see the time, its 11.30am, I have 2 half hour drive for my treatment duderstadt for dc vaccine this friday. we exchange emails again, I drive with my mild arm pains somehow to duderstadt.

my truth about cancer, just my opinion is that all these challenging cases in alternative clinics would be much better off if they had tried personalized before standard therapies.

I am so so glad for conventional success, I wish I had this to a greater extent myself even. I would not be alive today without the excellent conentional care at the start.

so any success with this illness is to be celebrated. I would go so far to say I fully respect everyone should choice of treatment.

the demands of my illness pushes me to greater extremes everyday, I think that's clear, I hope it is. trip 12 , this one may work as all the others to some extent, while I at least buy time, have a life with as much joy as possible adminst all the immense suffering and heart ache around me. in the suffering I clearly see immense hope and courage and faith.

just on monday I met a polish family, the son had to care for dad who had gbm, the wife juiced, we talked about prayer, about god. I pulled out this lovelly wooden cross from my pocket, the wife with no english feritted in her large hand bag for a long time. she pulled out her beautiful rosary beeds. again we smiled , hugged, kissed and I was dragged off for more treatments. I wished them well.

being relatively so well, I doubling count my blessings, I praise god for what fleeting success I have, really every second of my waking existence.

but again I am compelled to say the doctor here is great, that's why I am here, but in my heart I know what all these patients do is inadequate to my personalised standard of care, but that's the wanna be doctor in me, which has to wait until I succeed or die.

so I try, I cry and find all the joy that surrounds me. the competition between alternative doctors is probably more fierce than conventional. so my success in there praxis or clinic always brings questions and often conflict.

I often get into trouble, so to protect my own access to treatment I must shut up and say nothing, I let all these people go on there journey, hopefully to heaven.

I share my experience, the therapies, the observations, my life, it helps a few, it helps me make sense of my journey.

there is hope, there is a way for many many many more to have better quality and quantity of life than offered by the standard of care. of that I am certain.

God bless the lucky conventionals short and god help the rest of us.

if we pray I am sure he will.

amen, sorry for the offense, alas my english and the smart phone.

maybe the combo of targetted massive new castle virus disease,  gcmaf, tace, dendtric cell with ipilumimab and nivolumimab will save my ass and help some of the unlucky colorectals.

That's my hope and prayer.

I will die trying, and crying joy fully or live and help as many as possible. those who want my help, if any exist. my extreme ways impossible for most, i see that more and more.

today dr siebenhuener dhowed me the last in heavy metal treatment and measuring, its bloodless and immediate. godbless gerhard, he is an innovator.

http://www.ketogenic-diet-resource.com/low-carb-diet-side-effects.html

suffering lack of energy,
legs cramping.

increasing salt to one teaspoon a day
and 400mg mg citrate before sleep.

been urinating lots as well

sorry that's all friends, the change to ketolysis and I hope strong dc immune response saves me again.

these treatments responses the hardest yet, missing sleep due to urination, diarrhea, then crippling back pain, praying its not a met.

well survival is as always joy fully challenging,  but key great glucose, great key tones, prepared super3bp 2dg protocol.

life is good if its pain free, I dreamed of walking into the forest and ending the rats misery at the darkest hours.

but hope always seems to shine through, google my name and lost at sea, that vimeo is 5 years old, my wife is just as beautiful as the day I married her.

I still dream of complete remission asap and flying home to sweep her off her feet, before she punches or calls the police.

a man can dream, can't I, it keeps you going through through the pain.

phil; has left a new comment on your post "certainty of uncerainty":

"I went the cancer meeting, the very alternative one. but I say the death, suffering and pain of standard cancer outcomes is NO ALTERNATIVE FOR ME, OR ANY RATIONAL HUMAN, when so many better options".
Hi Pete, it sounds like you're still having a rough time and still can't accept that standard cancer treatments often work for many people. 11+ years and counting. Quality of life is very good. While one needs to do what they feel is right, I still fail to understand how bad mouthing someone's choice helps anyone.
I wish you well.
Phil

this is a really good comment, for a start I am so glad that some patients benefit from standard treatments, which is often chemo, surgery, radio.

at that meeting this brave lady was sitting, I arrived late, I had just come home to sydney and shared about trying the latest pd1 drug keytruda and other therapies. now its unlikely any of these alt inclined cancer patients will get to germany, mainly financial reasons. they are intensely interested and I speak to much trying to offer some hope, that so many things can be done to tackle cancer beyond standard.

at the end this beautiful lady walked in so much pain, my heart breaks at all the possibly avoidable suffering so many suffer where standard fails.

the cost of personalised alternative impossible for our society , government and not even culturally acceptable to many.

its just my challenges mean I got to many doctors and clinics in germany, I see often so much incredible pain , suffering and hopeless ness here in the clinics. just today a daughter grabbed me after my 2 hours oncothermia, her mum in agony dieing, not rely responding. the daughter helped me months ago when I had a flat car battery.  I offered to help then she said. she asks me out of love for her mum in desperation behind her brave composed face. I give her a hug and kiss, I offer gcmaf yogurt cultures.

she is not responding to the clinics best efforts, I think of all the things to do and try. I see the time, its 11.30am, I have 2 half hour drive for my treatment duderstadt for dc vaccine this friday. we exchange emails again, I drive with my mild arm pains somehow to duderstadt.

my truth about cancer, just my opinion is that all these challenging cases in alternative clinics would be much better off if they had tried personalized before standard therapies.

I am so so glad for conventional success, I wish I had this to a greater extent myself even. I would not be alive today without the excellent conentional care at the start.

so any success with this illness is to be celebrated. I would go so far to say I fully respect everyone should choice of treatment.

the demands of my illness pushes me to greater extremes everyday, I think that's clear, I hope it is. trip 12 , this one may work as all the others to some extent, while I at least buy time, have a life with as much joy as possible adminst all the immense suffering and heart ache around me. in the suffering I clearly see immense hope and courage and faith.

just on monday I met a polish family, the son had to care for dad who had gbm, the wife juiced, we talked about prayer, about god. I pulled out this lovelly wooden cross from my pocket, the wife with no english feritted in her large hand bag for a long time. she pulled out her beautiful rosary beeds. again we smiled , hugged, kissed and I was dragged off for more treatments. I wished them well.

being relatively so well, I doubling count my blessings, I praise god for what fleeting success I have, really every second of my waking existence.

but again I am compelled to say the doctor here is great, that's why I am here, but in my heart I know what all these patients do is inadequate to my personalised standard of care, but that's the wanna be doctor in me, which has to wait until I succeed or die.

so I try, I cry and find all the joy that surrounds me. the competition between alternative doctors is probably more fierce than conventional. so my success in there praxis or clinic always brings questions and often conflict.

I often get into trouble, so to protect my own access to treatment I must shut up and say nothing, I let all these people go on there journey, hopefully to heaven.

I share my experience, the therapies, the observations, my life, it helps a few, it helps me make sense of my journey.

there is hope, there is a way for many many many more to have better quality and quantity of life than offered by the standard of care. of that I am certain.

God bless the lucky conventionals short and god help the rest of us.

if we pray I am sure he will.

amen, sorry for the offense, alas my english and the smart phone.

maybe the combo of targetted massive new castle virus disease,  gcmaf, tace, dendtric cell with ipilumimab and nivolumimab will save my ass and help some of the unlucky colorectals.

That's my hope and prayer.

I will die trying, and crying joy fully or live and help as many as possible. those who want my help, if any exist. my extreme ways impossible for most, i see that more and more.

today dr siebenhuener dhowed me the last in heavy metal treatment and measuring, its bloodless and immediate. godbless gerhard, he is an innovator.

so I face my greastest challenge, the highest marker ever, my life and fate rests on continued therapy success.

getting some fantastic support from all around me, its really humbling to be so dependent on those around me, on the goodwill, the expertese and clinical capacity of my fine doctors.

I have to have increased capacity,  I have no room for errors, I need results. its that simple.

Organizing surgical options as standby, praying and walking and talking.

the immune suppression has just been fixed, my newcastle virus disease tagged  tumour cells are being removed as we speak.

I have faith in immunotherapies.

I have faith in god.

I have faith in myself.

I am living in considerable constant pain making sleep difficult, trying to fix.

its anothet fabulous sunny day in duderstadt,I get dc vaccine 11am and drive ti vogl for 2pm tace

pray for me, really in the poo

I have irrationaal hope, I have all I need

my miracle assured.

I had dinner with an engneet building bionic knees, then I joined this city fun run.

blissful pain, I see suffering ever, now I feel it, now I see it when I look in the mirror.

escape from pain  my goal

glorious, best, hardest day
start 6am swim, enema hotel of the lion duderstadt.
then walk
then super breakfast,
then lab tour my worlds best dc vaccine team with special doctor,
then 11am dc vaccine with extras, cannot say,
then crazy, very painful drive frankfurt for 2pm tace 29,
7.30pm waiting friends and doctor for dinner to celebrate life, this day.

just finished a week of the hardest and expensive therapies, I can concieve and believe in, inspired by god, science, doctors and friends.

prof vogls magic, his pain killers, well ill have a good sleep.

my life, as much as yours, depends on our immune system, this poor neglected child in our cultures.

we take much for granted, I used too,

we share this earth, I still do just,

as always the next few weeks exciting,

life gets better and better, and the unexpected challenges are matched by unexpected kindness.

I live, so do you, enjoy!

I am!

please pray for my twelf miracle,

I am intensively

I clearly see my health,

my swami guru friend, what's in your mind  will be, its all he said on our few enjoyable walks in the forest.

its a pity my christian friends, cannot see and feel the love, friend and compassion that this ashram attracts.

many large and small miracles here,  like a few head stands pain free,  my old body with a few sick cells magically doing yoga. but my face showing joyful torcher.

I still smiled, but noticed the deadly seriousness on the faces of the angels around me. these stunningly beautiful woman seeking yo gas gifts, need to smile more. maybe then a little heaven on earth in the yoga class.

I would often collaspse on my yoga mat, waiting for more energy,  recovering,  occasionally climpsing the lovelly sensousal forms around me. to be celibate in this environment another miracle. I think back to my old life, my beautiful wife and of all the blessings over 25 years together.

with the pain gone, I can push the body, the soul and the spirit. I have finally gotten back to deep meditation, so i feel all the elements of my past healings are in place,  even the walking.

its been bitterly cold in the tent, but I woke fresh 6am, with many vivid dreams, the unique gift of yoga meditation.

my dc vaccine lump large, a good omen.

I am praying that my wife finds someone wonderful to love her as I do, to be a step father to my wonderful  kids.  I thank god my mum died of her cancer before me, her son. she lost her 2 other  children to suicide. its a compassionate option for those cancer patients whose life is living hell, I pray this option is not for me, and I have courage to continue to pursue healing.

if I must die so be it , only  day, hopefully not today, there's a world needing love and hope, and my heart is bursting with gods most precious gifts.

the medical treatments done,  now the spirit.

dear jeJesusheal us all. amen

if God grants this next miracle, well I must be doing something right, if not I go to heaven, which is a wondetful option. gods will exciting in the extreme,  heaven on earth or the clouds. the clouds, forest, and sky have a sure all quality.

to live pain free again, with yoga and medicine surely another miracle, and not a small one.

Thank you for your love, kindness and prayers.

the courage, strength and wisdom I grave, feels amply provided by my god.

maybe Newcastle virus disease, dc vaccine, target ted chemo, small molecules and infusions are a viable treatment option for unresectable meta static colorectal cancer.

That's a dream worth fighting and dieing for.

just imagine if this works again, just imagine, I have a few tears.

just imagine.....

this world with more hope, less suffering and cost effective work able treatments for those in need.

just imagine and dream.

I live, so thetefore I dream!

do you? your dreams shape your destiny.

I see many miracles, do you?

my sons tears fuel my mission, I will come home healed,  with gods power I will find a way.

he called me for the first time, his tears ran down his face in his afternoon religion class as he had to write about courage and jesus.

he wrote about me.

I write about him.

his courage exceeds mine, he misses me, as I miss him.

I do the hardest, most innovative treatments ever concieved, guide by god and love.

3bp, 2dg, ipt, pdt, oncothetmia eta eta
Everyday,  in every way I heal.

the truth of this greatest challenge is gods choice, he made it for me to demonstrate this medicine is the future. that greed evil and need holy.

did radio with dr siebenhuener

so at last gcmaf hits the headlines, with dr bradstreets tragic death, such a waste. 

that gcmaf declared an illegal drug in the usa proof of our corrupt system.

http://www.naturalnews.com/050582_nagalase_GcMAF_cancer_industry_profits.html

I met dr jeff bradstreet twice at gcmaf conferences,  he was a pioneer. we talked a lot, he was friendly, kind. I met the parents he helped with autistic kids. of course gcmaf is real, the only problem is tumours can still shutdown activated immune systems, and in fact I suspect push them to an m2 phenotype where you get progression. my current problem.

gcmaf has enormous potential to help, but like all medicine it suffers from our greedy health system.

I may be the worlds most experienced gcmaf cancer patient, no one has had more gcmaf yogurt than me, that's for sure. I am blessed.

its tragic jeffs death, but out of his loss may come the cancer revolution I have been dreaming of for all these years.

the cheap cancer dream of a mix of oncolytic viruses, dendritric cell vaccines, gcmaf and infusions. the mainstream cancer and scientists have no clue about the power of mixing conventional with alternative medicine.

dear lord,
look after dr bradstreet, protect his legacy from the skeptics, protect and heal me also.
amen

dear dave,
Amen and thanks, I maybe alone, exhausted in my hotel room, after a day of the heaviest experimental treatments, but I feel immense peace and hope. we are one humanity, the tragedy so few realise this.

Dave Mills has left a new comment on your post "tears of courage flow from the vast spring of hope...":

Peace, Love and Light to you Peter! I have been reading your blog and stand amazed at your courage and desire to find alternative cures for disease. I pray for strengthening of your immune system and the effectiveness of the treatments and for your mental, physical and spiritual well-being! As well these things for your family - strength, peace, love, confidence..... we are all inter-connected. We are One. I am.

dear anna,
thanks for caring

Anna has left a new comment on your post "tears of courage flow from the vast spring of hope...":

Is it so serious? What about prof.Vogl treatment?

give the worlds best vogl a target, and we have exceptional results using combination therapies,. but but but

what if latest disease does not show mri, ct his main tools, so escalating baseline markers drove his request for me to do a pet. to save money I went home, coincidentally got massive needle infusion infection

do my long term readers see the irony here, I just realised my infection sensitive cancer explodes when crp increases. so markers jumped 55 to 650 4 weeks,  so fighting like hell to put out peritoneal disease.

the irony I suffer immune collapse, get infection , then get recurrence.  4 infected chemo ports, one infusion infection, one ear infection.

Breaking the infection recurrence cycle a joyful expensive challenge.

so when eagle eye vogl is blindfolded, we need effective systemic, ie 2dg, 3bp and soon salomynomycin and difusinal from hall Wang.

or massive surgery, peritonecomy.

giving my prefered and trusted alternatives first shot at this recurrence.

I wont give in that easy.

lots of options, I have got the money and I hope the time, but god help us.

so blessed not camping,  i found a cheap lastminute secret hotel for 3 nights, i had 10 diarrhea from midnight to dawn, reasonable pain also. the miracle was that one gcmaf suppository coincided with my bowel syndrome settling, so I could manage 8 hours of therapies doing oncothermia and photo dynamic therapy.

the photo, the aftermath of 5 lasers for pdt today, back 8am for more as chlorin e6 half allows one more laser session, the pain in lungs abdomen is real.  I love these alternative therapies but they ain't easy.

I have also been looking for natural solutions for nivolumimab colitis
http://www.drdavidwilliams.com/ulcerative-colitis-natural-treatments/
i took ghee from ash ram, adding it to coffee enema. now that's another first.

I share the pain, the suffering, the joy, basically it all.

to change the world takes integrity,  oh and the silver lining in this greatest challenge,  my doctors stand by me, my challenge brings out there best for me and others. gerhard siebenhuener, horger, vogl and nesslehut have been exceptional.

the rest I let rest, there time coming.

florians always exceptional.

the longest blog

god is real,

my answer to cancer,

my truth about cancer is here,

god is real,

healing is possible,

maybe its the ghee or 3bp,

Together we will see,

this is the best cancer blog in the universe,

its a secret, we share

can you guess what the photo is, the latest treatment?

COULD IT BE?

THE GHEE, HE HE HE

telling the world, no one follows ! really close, but maybe one!

better alive than dead

its friends that keep me alive, they give gcmaf, ndv, I am blessed

pink ndv in bath with ndv enema.

we will die
I will try
make love not war

I fly for birthdays Sydney 21to 28 august, my daughter knows I love her.

quick trip. my party 25th, come along world.

lets celebrate life

I still have it.

sso much suffering around me, cancer pain and progression, my doctor friends suffering burn out and broken hearts.

I see all this, I feel and pray for my friends.

so today blood tests , heavy metal chelation with alapha lipoic acid, edta, dmps, dmsa. then a nice sauna.

a dusk walk around the lake and a dance in the kitchen.

dreaming of intraperitoneal keytruda tuesday, checking idea with nesslehut senior as he is back from holidays monday.

also on monday I meet dr stoppler of b17 fame.

today I said goodbye to florian who learns latest stem cells.

I am blessed to have a clever team.

may god grant us our miracles, be they large or small.

no idea good sources gcmaf, sarce as hens teeth at present. the best bet suppositories and bravo yogurt. iv supplies been shutdown authorities,  alas they don't know the harm they do.

best news on my german birthday party.
therapy success the greatest gift.

I am so tired, made gcmaf yogurt.

to have kind hearted friends makes the journey joyful.

thank you lord for this ongoing miracle

http://www.cmbl.org.pl/vol19_nr2.php
3bp and signaling

http://www.cancerfocus.org/forum/showthread.php?t=4083

http://csn.cancer.org/node/209534
48 hour fasting
an old thread, before I was banned csn
I tried so hard to share , to educate, now I save my energy.

those on csn I loved have passed, most of them.