so i slept in until noon, the 9 days of qigong training using the yain miang system and combo yoga was really draining. I woke feeling refreshed and still a little sore still where the stretching had been intense. I can now get all the cardio workout i need out of qigong, I cannot believe how strong and flexibible I have become, tonight at qigong I said I feel like i have lost 10 years younger.
This afternoon my surgeon prof morris called me, they will rfa the large met, i am on the operating list. they could not see the small 4.5mm met in the upper right lung. interesting that the ct report and pet report clearly mention its existencee, but that a team of radiologists and surgeons could not. I asked if the high resolution ct images i requested as a special extra from paul my radiologist would help. he said yes, drop it in, they will review the high res images next review meeting. he said they will do the other lung met if they can see it and find it.
Another prime example of psuhing your own agenda, the latest CT was requested by prof morris to plan for the rfa. It was booked at the local standard ct joint near the hospital. I mentioned to julian the vaccine guru about the CT, he said I want the HIGH RES images, so I asked paul the radiologist who has reviewed most ct's, ultrsounds, pets, and mri's. Now prof morris wants the high resolution images.
I team of top radiologists could not see the 4.5mm lung met, just the big one using standard ct imaging. think about it, so many are pronounced NED, but really its the limits of the imaging technology and radiologists. That said the radiologists confirmed my peritoneal disease looks clean and thats all this team does is peritoneal and lung, so yes I am blessed. the last identifiable tumour is about to be rfa's away.
I mentioned p2x7 vaccine trial, its clear that i need active disease to qualify, so while i am on the list officially for rfa, i might also get the the no to do the singapore p2x7 trial. all the balls are in the air. If the singapore vaccine comes first, I will do it, if not I will do rfa, I also have a nesslehut vaccine booked for 16th november.
Its been a wonderful relaxing day, doing birthday things for my son, his oztag team wished him happy birthday, they devoured chocolate mud cake and water melon. the fat boy demand seconds without a please! my son loved it, this is the end of 3 days of parties, I am home and he is being spoilt.
After dinner tonight he begged me to do night flights with him in the parking lot opposite our front yard. The kids loved the helicopter. I coud have been at the airport, getting ready to fly. buti think now is the time to be a father, so rather than save the cancer world, I'll save myself.
Some of the emails and stories I hear break my heart in so many ways! its really impossible for me to be a diplomat, I hate refering people who ask me for advice or help off to clinics, when i know full well they need to add their own magic into their healing. but I cannot case manage or even advise, although I cringe and feel guilty that I am not really helping those super brave cancer patients who for whatever reason respond to my blog. I often dont answer emails for days, and often what I say though well meaning.
The discssion of what german clinic, what therapy ? ie hallwang, nesslehut and a host of others. All the clincs and doctors have strong points. I guess thats up to the patient and there carers to discern, which is really an impossible task.
I am staying put in australia to see if after the lung rfa I cn get and stay in remission, so even I am not running straight back to germany, to the cold winter and the baden baden conference. If however home and money issues were not serious I likely would have gone, but some of the therapy offerings are just too attractive. I really also want to consolidate my new qigong skills. I did another wonderful workout tonight, 10 day in a row and an evening enema.
I had a chat with my yorgurt and probiotics guru and supplier, he reminded me about ppi's and low stomch acid and b12 defficiency amongst other deficencies. I blessed to be surrounded by such a cutting edge team around me
i made my ketogenic breakfast late and a vegetable and organic chicken brooth for dinner with gcmaf and chocolate whey protien for dessert. the secret is enough protien, enough oil. I am going to focus on refining these techniques.
I finally I called an old friend who is taking a group of friends and aquaintnces to north west island bush camping on a tropical island for 18 days. He will call me back tomorrow if I can get onto it. Fingers crossed, its a special cancer clinic.
So today I dreamed of scuba diving and enjoying my life, not that I am not, but I am interested in doing underwater qigong, I already meditate underwater, once another diver thought I had died as I was sitting on the bottom not blowing bubbles, or very very slowly with my eyes closed. I scared them as much as they scared me when i jumped when they startled me under water. I need a sign that floats saying leave meditating diver alone!
the confidence to stay away from germany comes from my increasing health and knowledge. Getting solid qigong skills that allow me to live really blissfully each breathe if the heart of my healing and remission. Of course I am trusting my gut, the easiest option, possibly the safest woud have been to go back to the security of germany, of hallwang and nesslehut or the other clincs and immunotherapists biting at their heals. I will leave that maze for other to navigate.
my 50% dna replicas are sleeping, they have been loved and instructed today, as everyday. They got up at 6.00am and were dressed for school early, mum could not believe it, while I blissfully snored. clearly recharging my batteries from qigong and the demands of life. I might do some weights training tomorrow, and I have vitamin C the next day with ashley berry.
Another amazing doctor Dr Medicie toold me via a good friend focus on enzyme therapy and yoga stretching. his words immediately resonated in the heart, but so much of the last few months has followed his wise advice. One day our paths will cross. Thanks for the intro Moe! The longer I live, its the magical combination of who and what you know and the support from your network that gives real fighters in this hard bloody challenge the edge.
about 500 blog entries ago I was talking about peace of mind, its the same as living joyfully. Its so challeging to live joyfully knowing your life maybe be ending soon, but that very reality means now is the time to live joyfully and to fully engage the power within. For me its qigong and meditation. Cancer was a wake up call to find happiness, it starts with admiring your own smile.
This afternoon my surgeon prof morris called me, they will rfa the large met, i am on the operating list. they could not see the small 4.5mm met in the upper right lung. interesting that the ct report and pet report clearly mention its existencee, but that a team of radiologists and surgeons could not. I asked if the high resolution ct images i requested as a special extra from paul my radiologist would help. he said yes, drop it in, they will review the high res images next review meeting. he said they will do the other lung met if they can see it and find it.
Another prime example of psuhing your own agenda, the latest CT was requested by prof morris to plan for the rfa. It was booked at the local standard ct joint near the hospital. I mentioned to julian the vaccine guru about the CT, he said I want the HIGH RES images, so I asked paul the radiologist who has reviewed most ct's, ultrsounds, pets, and mri's. Now prof morris wants the high resolution images.
I team of top radiologists could not see the 4.5mm lung met, just the big one using standard ct imaging. think about it, so many are pronounced NED, but really its the limits of the imaging technology and radiologists. That said the radiologists confirmed my peritoneal disease looks clean and thats all this team does is peritoneal and lung, so yes I am blessed. the last identifiable tumour is about to be rfa's away.
I mentioned p2x7 vaccine trial, its clear that i need active disease to qualify, so while i am on the list officially for rfa, i might also get the the no to do the singapore p2x7 trial. all the balls are in the air. If the singapore vaccine comes first, I will do it, if not I will do rfa, I also have a nesslehut vaccine booked for 16th november.
Its been a wonderful relaxing day, doing birthday things for my son, his oztag team wished him happy birthday, they devoured chocolate mud cake and water melon. the fat boy demand seconds without a please! my son loved it, this is the end of 3 days of parties, I am home and he is being spoilt.
After dinner tonight he begged me to do night flights with him in the parking lot opposite our front yard. The kids loved the helicopter. I coud have been at the airport, getting ready to fly. buti think now is the time to be a father, so rather than save the cancer world, I'll save myself.
Some of the emails and stories I hear break my heart in so many ways! its really impossible for me to be a diplomat, I hate refering people who ask me for advice or help off to clinics, when i know full well they need to add their own magic into their healing. but I cannot case manage or even advise, although I cringe and feel guilty that I am not really helping those super brave cancer patients who for whatever reason respond to my blog. I often dont answer emails for days, and often what I say though well meaning.
The discssion of what german clinic, what therapy ? ie hallwang, nesslehut and a host of others. All the clincs and doctors have strong points. I guess thats up to the patient and there carers to discern, which is really an impossible task.
I am staying put in australia to see if after the lung rfa I cn get and stay in remission, so even I am not running straight back to germany, to the cold winter and the baden baden conference. If however home and money issues were not serious I likely would have gone, but some of the therapy offerings are just too attractive. I really also want to consolidate my new qigong skills. I did another wonderful workout tonight, 10 day in a row and an evening enema.
I had a chat with my yorgurt and probiotics guru and supplier, he reminded me about ppi's and low stomch acid and b12 defficiency amongst other deficencies. I blessed to be surrounded by such a cutting edge team around me
i made my ketogenic breakfast late and a vegetable and organic chicken brooth for dinner with gcmaf and chocolate whey protien for dessert. the secret is enough protien, enough oil. I am going to focus on refining these techniques.
I finally I called an old friend who is taking a group of friends and aquaintnces to north west island bush camping on a tropical island for 18 days. He will call me back tomorrow if I can get onto it. Fingers crossed, its a special cancer clinic.
So today I dreamed of scuba diving and enjoying my life, not that I am not, but I am interested in doing underwater qigong, I already meditate underwater, once another diver thought I had died as I was sitting on the bottom not blowing bubbles, or very very slowly with my eyes closed. I scared them as much as they scared me when i jumped when they startled me under water. I need a sign that floats saying leave meditating diver alone!
the confidence to stay away from germany comes from my increasing health and knowledge. Getting solid qigong skills that allow me to live really blissfully each breathe if the heart of my healing and remission. Of course I am trusting my gut, the easiest option, possibly the safest woud have been to go back to the security of germany, of hallwang and nesslehut or the other clincs and immunotherapists biting at their heals. I will leave that maze for other to navigate.
my 50% dna replicas are sleeping, they have been loved and instructed today, as everyday. They got up at 6.00am and were dressed for school early, mum could not believe it, while I blissfully snored. clearly recharging my batteries from qigong and the demands of life. I might do some weights training tomorrow, and I have vitamin C the next day with ashley berry.
Another amazing doctor Dr Medicie toold me via a good friend focus on enzyme therapy and yoga stretching. his words immediately resonated in the heart, but so much of the last few months has followed his wise advice. One day our paths will cross. Thanks for the intro Moe! The longer I live, its the magical combination of who and what you know and the support from your network that gives real fighters in this hard bloody challenge the edge.
about 500 blog entries ago I was talking about peace of mind, its the same as living joyfully. Its so challeging to live joyfully knowing your life maybe be ending soon, but that very reality means now is the time to live joyfully and to fully engage the power within. For me its qigong and meditation. Cancer was a wake up call to find happiness, it starts with admiring your own smile.