The 3 days diving on Saxon and Norman reef was magic for me and great for daughter and good for wife. My son did some snorkeling but enjoyed the massive livaboard that accomodates 50 divers and 20 crew.
The night dive with 40 sharks was the unforgettable highlight for me and my daughter. I dive just like a see creature, I use almost no air now. Every dive was a meditation. My muscles are a little stiff, but in a good way.
I balanced family time and diving and resting and enemas at sea. Not as easy as you think.
So my medicines are for me and not for mother and family in Melbourne. They require commitment and support so diet and all therapies not happening for mother. I left yogurts at hospital and home and high dose vital d. The rest I will use for myself to see how long I can stay in remission. Doing pet scan and markers and bloods tomorrow.
I am joyful and grateful for the excellent alternative Germany medicines I have access to in Sydney. I have infusions booked for tomorrow lunch.
I will if I can get tumor control in Sydney.
Next vaccine 4 weeks. I don't have funds to go back Germany so I better make this work.
My scuba diving is 10 times more enjoyable after learning my yoga. I spent most of the dives in a modified fish position. I floated effortlessly on the currents.
The reefs are tragically destroyed. But I have there beauty locked away in past visions. The cyclonic rubble I showed my wife and daughter the truth about the barrier reef.
All beauty is fragile as is love. We head home rested, relaxed and as a peaceful family with wonderful challenges before us.
To test my therapies right here right now and help my wife. Well its a dream come true. The cm it conference can wait.
Another test for gcmaf and b17 dca and my meditation. The pet scan results I will run past oncologist and surgeon next Monday and Wednesday.
It's Ren rememberance on Sunday. I wonder if I can make it.
For the record almost a year after my use by date I am like a super diving fish. My daughter seems to copy me and dives like a mermaid with a love of sharks just like my own. What we fear and why we fear the subjects of dinner conversation.
If you swim joyfully surrounded by excited sharks well maybe I have taught her the most important lesson in life.
Alas fears and memories imprison most of humanity. To love life. To have courage and to be fearless of life. It's challenges and to grasp all opportunity. I think my daughter has learnt this lesson.
We both did underwater head stands. That takes some skill and calmness.
There is chaos above the water and tranquility below.
It's time to checkout of the Hiltons in cairns and make our way home to Sydney.
German infusions start tomorrow I Sydney. I am blessed.
When I dive I am apart of the reef. It's a truly wonderful feeling and I hardly breathe just like very deep meditation.
Maybe the cancer is truly completely gone.