i woke and saw diamonds in the sky, I blinked, I am alive.
oh its the sun reflected in dew drops on the flyscreen mesh above my face.
I am capitivated by the diamonds, they are so beautiful, i try to take a photo for my kids, to share the beauty of the moment. but a flat battery.
i sit in my little tent, i pull my sleeping bag open over my head, i sit on my butterfly meditation cushion and i pray. while my microcurrent runs the concussion routines.
i the distance i hear the chants of the indian yogi who delivered a wonderful lectures at the previous evenings prayers.
its 10am sunday morning, half way around this glorious planet, my wife and kids are at mass I HOPE, and I pray and meditate and listen to the chnts and the wonderful bird singings there hearts out.
In my way I am singing my heart out, are you ?, its a good question .
so i sleep so long, so deeply. I was woken again by the cold, then by the birds, then by a visiting yogi chanting at a table on the grass not that far from my tent.
i thanked god for another day, i said my our father.
i had the awareness of my arm muscles, they have been tested, developed by the very heavy but wonderful yoga. I am pushed to my physical limits, i snuck in on the yoga teachers training course.
I do have the sense to back off and heal, but I will do the 4pm class today and a gentle walk now.
at lunch we discussed so much, it flowed from the night before talk by visiting indian yogi couple explaining yoga history and key texts with some comments from the bible.
i listen and study the hindu texts and also pray and read my bible. in the same time i come up with my cancer treatment ideas. these arise like little gifts from god. ideas that I know immediately will help me. i will take a vial of gcmaf to vogl tomorrow, just in case he sees something he can treat it. I just wrote another detailed email, that may in the end save my life,
TO SOME KEY DOCTORS
my bowels and lungs feel much better after 4 days intense yoga, less flem and coughing, no diahrrea. so based on symptoms I suspect whatever inflammation i am having could be due to the tumour.
i suspect the imaging tomorrow may or may not show a target or targets for tace.if it does show a target, obviously we treat kill it asap. If i get to the clinic before 2pm maybe I could have tace done.
given that the possibility of tace is real, i will bring a vial of gcmaf GOLEIC with me.
now the 2ml, could be deployed to the lymphs, to the lung, to the liver, to the peritoneal. these will be dictated by prof vogls assessment.
He knows we treated the lymphs previously and then the peritoneal before that.
upon consideration, to me it seems reasonable to do the tace unless absolutely nothing shows, and then I suppose prof vogl will request a pet scan or other imaging.
as florian has suggested our new focus is cancer stem cells, so the rational of targetting previous sites of disease, as the most likely sites of micrometastatic disease seems reasonable. further more treating with the tace chemo cocktail should kill any fast growing
note that the antigenicity of fast and slow and dormant tumour cells the same. so generating antigens from the killing the fast growing cells using chemo in the tace, hopefully the activated macrophages will pickup the antigens. now its also possible that the chemo wakens up the dormant stem cells.
if prof vogl says go ahead with tace, then I would like to do oncothermia ipt the next day if possible. this maybe frankfurt or munich
oh its the sun reflected in dew drops on the flyscreen mesh above my face.
I am capitivated by the diamonds, they are so beautiful, i try to take a photo for my kids, to share the beauty of the moment. but a flat battery.
i sit in my little tent, i pull my sleeping bag open over my head, i sit on my butterfly meditation cushion and i pray. while my microcurrent runs the concussion routines.
i the distance i hear the chants of the indian yogi who delivered a wonderful lectures at the previous evenings prayers.
its 10am sunday morning, half way around this glorious planet, my wife and kids are at mass I HOPE, and I pray and meditate and listen to the chnts and the wonderful bird singings there hearts out.
In my way I am singing my heart out, are you ?, its a good question .
so i sleep so long, so deeply. I was woken again by the cold, then by the birds, then by a visiting yogi chanting at a table on the grass not that far from my tent.
i thanked god for another day, i said my our father.
i had the awareness of my arm muscles, they have been tested, developed by the very heavy but wonderful yoga. I am pushed to my physical limits, i snuck in on the yoga teachers training course.
I do have the sense to back off and heal, but I will do the 4pm class today and a gentle walk now.
at lunch we discussed so much, it flowed from the night before talk by visiting indian yogi couple explaining yoga history and key texts with some comments from the bible.
i listen and study the hindu texts and also pray and read my bible. in the same time i come up with my cancer treatment ideas. these arise like little gifts from god. ideas that I know immediately will help me. i will take a vial of gcmaf to vogl tomorrow, just in case he sees something he can treat it. I just wrote another detailed email, that may in the end save my life,
TO SOME KEY DOCTORS
my bowels and lungs feel much better after 4 days intense yoga, less flem and coughing, no diahrrea. so based on symptoms I suspect whatever inflammation i am having could be due to the tumour.
i suspect the imaging tomorrow may or may not show a target or targets for tace.
given that the possibility of tace is real, i will bring a vial of gcmaf GOLEIC with me.
now the 2ml, could be deployed to the lymphs, to the lung, to the liver, to the peritoneal. these will be dictated by prof vogls assessment.
He knows we treated the lymphs previously and then the peritoneal before that.
upon consideration, to me it seems reasonable to do the tace unless absolutely nothing shows, and then I suppose prof vogl will request a pet scan or other imaging.
as florian has suggested our new focus is cancer stem cells, so the rational of targetting previous sites of disease, as the most likely sites of micrometastatic disease seems reasonable. further more treating with the tace chemo cocktail should kill any fast growing
note that the antigenicity of fast and slow and dormant tumour cells the same. so generating antigens from the killing the fast growing cells using chemo in the tace, hopefully the activated macrophages will pickup the antigens. now its also possible that the chemo wakens up the dormant stem cells.
these awakened stem cells maybe targeted by activated antigen aware macrophages. these macrophages may cross present to dendritic cells, either of these APCs may present to CD4 helper TCELLs and CD8 CRL to deliver a synergistic immune response.
I prepose to do gainy immun tumour markers and cytokines monday morning at gerhards.
I also suspect a dose of iv curcumin, selenium, dca, 2dg might get the tumours ready, primed for tace in case its possible.
now gerhard also has a vial of ndv new castle virus disease. my concept is to also deploy it at the the commence of the tace as a proflactive type treatment, that is delivered arterially targeting all none targetted sites of disease. its cost effective to use the tace procedure for disease discovery and eradication, for delivery of immun stimulatory aspects capitalising on antigen release. finally we use ndv to systemically address other non targetted micrometastasis.
note I have ample memory bcell primed for ndv and p2x7. I use the documented presence of good levels endogenous p2x7 antibody. We also have the previous good NDV response to the lymphatic a few weeks ago with just NDV monotherapy. I have not seen that response to VENOUS delivery NDV before
these are my best ideas based on the immunotherapy conference and yoga relaxation.
I have always enjoyed fast and effective responses to identified rises in my marker, targetted specific treatment monday is reaction in under a week to identified marker rise. I LIKE THAT.
So the plan MONDAY simple
GERHARDS for bloods and infusions. I collect my GOLEIC GCMAF and NDV
Goto DENTIST
Goto VOGL Tace
Tuesday
MUNICH DO oncothermia and ipt if TACE given monday
or proceed with HYPERBARIC and retinoic acid therapy
THE CAGE
we discussed at lunch the scientists who would not help me.
they are prisoners in there ego cages, even the rats they kill have more effective freedom than the scientists.
the rats are ensalved by forces beyond there control. I hope they are happy.
the scientists are ensalved by choice, by ego, they have much in common with the evil nazi scientists who did horendous unethical experiments on humans during ww2.
is the current lack of action by the scientific community any less damming than we are of those scientists.
with the delays in implementation of current research, we the cancer patients die by the truck loads, while the rats die in experiments and the truth of my survival and techniques. the mixing of breakthrough and alternative holds so much promise, I MY VIEW ALONE it seems.
Maybe a RAT can let the scientist out of his CAGE.
Maybe an open enquiring mind and a desire to live, is all thats needed to prevail.
Then again, maybe I am dreaming, but its a nice dream!
I must walk, enema, yoga and pray!! If you have metastatic illness these simple lifestyle ideas may help you!
THE CAGE
we discussed at lunch the scientists who would not help me.
they are prisoners in there ego cages, even the rats they kill have more effective freedom than the scientists.
the rats are ensalved by forces beyond there control. I hope they are happy.
the scientists are ensalved by choice, by ego, they have much in common with the evil nazi scientists who did horendous unethical experiments on humans during ww2.
is the current lack of action by the scientific community any less damming than we are of those scientists.
with the delays in implementation of current research, we the cancer patients die by the truck loads, while the rats die in experiments and the truth of my survival and techniques. the mixing of breakthrough and alternative holds so much promise, I MY VIEW ALONE it seems.
Maybe a RAT can let the scientist out of his CAGE.
Maybe an open enquiring mind and a desire to live, is all thats needed to prevail.
Then again, maybe I am dreaming, but its a nice dream!
I must walk, enema, yoga and pray!! If you have metastatic illness these simple lifestyle ideas may help you!