I suspect ketogenic holiday contributed to liver met progression, going back to ketosis asap. I suspect liver mets more sensitive glucose, ie hier suv pet. an expensive less, note peritoneum lowest blood flow, least glucose, best response. todays cancer markers maybe a shock. I live and learn and share it all, the set backs or mistakes teach us.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ot96y5-D_K0
WHAT'S IMPOSSIBLE? TIME TRAVEL
https://vimeo.com/18463353.
pete lost at sea, look at the chubby cheecks hiding rectal cancer in a very fat bum.
and today who said, mr trayhurn you started with one medication, now you have more and more ?
so you are the hero!, i said, no you are the little hero, so is prof, so am I, we are humanity, we are all little heroes.
I am nothing without gods grace, whatever my success, whatever I achieve reflect gods love and power. I give him all praise and thanks and make no apologises for begging for his courage, strength and wisdom.
I am healed in all ways, my joyful ordeal ultimately healing, my miracles proof.
today gods eyes and hand and heart is prof vogl, tomorrow its dr kopic, the day after dr nesslehut. I call nesslehut my father, who else gives a rat a job, a father hope, a son and daughter and wife a candle in the wind. as elton john says, the candle burned out long before the kegend ever did. so I am legend. I will add my faith, hope and strength to all seeking miracles, that will be my legacy, my gift to this magnificent, glorious suffering humanity.
With such impossible dreams how can I fail?
alas that's my nature, give me an inch of hope and I take mile of hope. I push myself as all around me, even if its a hug.
This life is for living and loving NOW, not yesterday and not tomorrow, but NOW, of that I AM CERTAIN.
EXECUTIVE SUMMARY
Tace32 went very well, the focus based on mri, was the liver MET, we had discussed doing both mets, but it was clear from prof assessment that the liver met needed priority. So it was embolised with aggressive cocktail CONFIDENTIAL, we redo 18th another embolise and on 6th we abalate. Its next to heart so very dangerous, but its life or death, a chance of remission or slow paonful cancer death. I already made my choice. WE FRY THE SUCKER TO HELL.
do you see this net refactory immunotherapies, we clear peritoneum, we have regression everywhere but one spot. so we identify, we destroy it whike its possible. my immune responses have been excellent, on going for 3 years, do you get it, sonetimes with immunoedditing or microenvironjent specifics we get escape, the trick is not more vaccines, its a different attack.
so I a few weeks, the liver clear again, this is my inense, vivid wish my desire, my prayer, my god is listening, its been granted akready as vogl vision.
he said, if I were you, I would, I said I would toooo. all this while tacing the sucker, this pillow talk during the tace, he had his eyes closed and was smiling, just like me. after 32 taces he knows my soul better than I.
of course he gives ne hooe, but he shared I do also. all my doctors use my miracle to give hope, royalty free.
I feel this massive ball of cancer suffering on my shoulders, but its strangely weight less with god holding the weight, but I see the suffering, I feel it, despite this I am so filled with joy. I truly feel magnificent, maybe its the cystal clear plan, combined the faith and god.
I got a kind message from wife,, maybe its that.
So profs plan, to embolise again and then microwave it. now the mets near my heart, so its very tricky, but he smiled and said we do it. again I have a g
some prof quotes today, you are an ongoing miracle.
you can take it, you are so strong and healthy. The it was today cocktail, which was difficult to administer.
IN THE DISTANT FUTURE
xXX For immunotherapy dreamers, a riddle. what do you get when you combine with skill, precision, speed, confidence and love
a dash of avastin, keytruda, gcmaf, ndv,irenotecan, mytomycin, emboli. well these equate to a pseudo lymph node, that could be a big liver met for example. that may have been refactory to other previous treatments.
so prof quote of the day, I am faster than the tumour. Now we all knows this is true, it contrasts to standard oncologists that say lets try cheno that does not work anyway and ill see you in 3 months.
how nany times have I had a clinical event ie marker rise, scan finding, often in sydney. I email, fly and treat within the week often. I have gone around the planet, treated the problem, often before I could get an appointment in sydney. they say speed kills, well sometimes it saves, me anyway. I wish to share prof vogl clinical wisdom.
when I arrived uniclinic 1pm, from my 8am duderstadt blood draw, well
prof vogl says, you look good, everyone does! but I ask, how do the images look?
the tace 32 cocktail is codenamed sex on the beach, after the cocktail I enjoyed in Skegness by the seaside last week.
This tace, its very unique contents give me joy, so fully its profound, I am so so full of hope. I am the happiest, miraculous rat alive. if I do die today, i go straight to heaven , you know how well I tried.
That was the first real alcohol cocktail I have enjoyed in a long long time. I had it when I was enjoying afternoon drinks with my wonderful friend Dean and his old friend Mark, who is now my new friend. They really laughed about my joke its been along time since I enjoyed sex on the beach. The cocktail tasted great, like the experience. I am blessed to have fine memories, they sustain me through this joyful ordeal. The richness of my life before the cancer really helps me now.
my therapy innovations I am proud of, as I have nothing to loose and everything to gain! I dream of remission, of enduring cure and returning to my family.
so I visited my friend sabine last night in bovenden, my registered getman address that I need for work visa at the house of energy in the forest, we talked and did some qigong. her warm hug the most healing medicine. I did not loose my family, I simply extend it to where I am.
my friends in germany are treasures.
this morning I tested the new port in duderstadt for the pre vaccine blood test. they got blood out of the port thank god.
so the cancer markers interesting.
I have had a ketogenic holiday, these last 2 weeks, during peak immune response, now I feel great, I am in waiting room prof vogl for tace 32 with primovist mri. this mri is needed by prof morris to assess me for liver, peritonecomy resection, I have a tentative yes, but this depends on imaging.
this trip I'll workout strategy based prof vogl assessment imaging pet scan and mri. its been a fun few weeks.
got my first dvt in foot , after all the flying and driving its bound to happen, even though my blood is very thin.
the silver lining clear targets for prof vogl.
dr kopic has good options for me. seeing him 4pm stutgart. do you see my travel, Frankfurt, duderstadt, stuggart, duderstadt, frankfurt with therapies, consults and operations in between.
dr thaller happy about peritoneal success which I give him much praise for. vogl confirmed peritoneum clear, which is really immunotheraputic success, with support gerhards pdt, ipt and infusions.
ill update this post tace and imaging.
without my health, strength and finance this miracle would be impossible, prof vogl said an oldet patient could not cope, he knows I can, so these impossibly aggressive combination therapies I take very well. I thank god for my health that makes this possible. do you see how lifestyle, qigong, tcm, meditation, saunas give the health, strength and hope to succeed!
so a go climb a mountain in spain 24thsept to 5thoct for daily qigong.
my newest friend john said hit it hard hit fast, he would like vogl.
ipt tomorrow, then the famous human kopic, then friday dudetstadt and i meet my third father and boss and doctor nesslehut senior
what a life)
amen, its enema time
to me
POSSIBLE IMPOSSIBLE
=
IMPOSSIBLE POSSIBLE
The bible says. ALL THINGS POSSIBLE THROUGH CHRIST.
I BELIEVE!
Do you think ill ever give up? never
Even when god calls, ill say but i am here already,
If i must fly to heaven sooner than later, ill pray for first class ticket, I ve done enough economy flying in the heavens already. i wonder if angels get dvt like me.
this blog as absure as they come, it could be the ancient plant medicines.
DEAR GOD, GRANT US ALL MIRACLES, GRANT US COURAGE, STRENGTH AND WISDOM
for torkel, gunther, all my friends, all my readers.
a special thanks to all scientists, doctors, business people, patients, and nurses doing immunotherapy trials, i learn and implement for the lessons learned, for example the unpublished results of synergy between vegf inhitibition, pd1 blockade and dc vaccine. before the conventional oncologist even dreams of these studies, the rat reads, the rat learns, the rat implements.
THE RAT LIVES, LONG LIVE THE RAT, ALL RATS.
FOLLOW YOUR HEART, HAVE THE COURAGE TO FOLLOW YOUR PATH, MAKE YOUR PATH, MAKE YOUR FUTURE, THE WILL TO LIVE, IS THE BEST NEDICINE, ITS SECRET INGREDIENT
HOPE
Special thank to dr horger, who also lives and loves the RAT,
THE BIGGEST MIRACLE, MY REMISSION IS JUST THE SUM OF VERY MANY LITTLE MIRACLES.
ITS INEVITABLE, ITS REALITY, I TAKE MY SON SAILING IN OUR GLIRIOUS BARRIER REEF FOR HIS BIRTHDAY, THATS REALITY, ITS THE NAME OF A DREAM AND MY DEAR FRIENDS CATAMERRAN
so i am looking for my lost at sea story and found this old csn post about my banning and my desire to come back, almost all those i loved and tried to help are gone. I enjoy my absolute obsurity on the net now, a little hermit, hiding safely away, i save my energy for my survival, my full remission joyfully challenging, but these days of painfree health energy and love treasures from my god. those few i touch, i cherish and pray for, the rest i leave in peace, the futility of my sharing these radical therapies so early, offered the only hope to my dead friends, alas now we have the immunotherapy revolution, the biggest loosers us colorectals, unless you add ndv. i stay safely in my shell. i cannot even share my actual treatments any more as the authorities are ruthless to couragous alternative doctors, they at least try to give hope to the hopeless. the blend of alt and conventional will save many coloretals one day. i maybe in heaven very soon if the liver met near heart grows, if the abalation fails, then again i might live, ill leave it too god, who on the day is vogl.
the mans vision, energy and passion unknown to few, his critics simply ignorant. he starts before 5am, goes until 7pm, offers the best quality and quantity of life, yes he gave me a tace on his account when i had no money, i never get a cent, he is part of a government university with the highest standards, he is a pioneering heroes like vogl, like nesslehut, like kopic, like schilling, like siebenhuener, like lenz. these are unsung heroes, easily attacked by conventionals. with my experience of there care and skill and saving my life this far. I offer them all the support and gratitude i can, but yes they are human, all with flaws, but in them i see glimpses of the divine, i really really do!
SO I SING MY PRAISES IN A LOUD CLEAR VOICE, go make your own path and choices.
