Eat when hungry. Sleep when tired! Even McDonald's has safe ketogenic options but it's fun how the Germans hate low carb. What NO BUN! Impossible a burger with no bun. The girl with big buns has had many but gets it eventually. All the staff look in horror that I KILL BIG MAC. I smile and look up. Key tones 3.6 today, bloody high reading while my liver is being attacked as all key enzymes screwed for first time in 6 months. I explained to my doctor FANTASTIC optivo auto immune hitting multiple organs. Let's get drunk! Just joking!
The silver lining manifests at midnight in McDonald's on an autobahn somewhere on earth. I let my gps copilot take me towards my good friend Dr thaller the world's BEST VIROLOGIST. I'll back track 20km as I'm exhausted but I've done 6 hours driving and almost crashed. God's with me. I was speaking to a dear old friend at the time of the near miss. He said god night you better concentrate. I was . The challenge is driving with legs so weak you have to lift them into the van . Thank god I got a free upgraded to this van. I'd never get in the cheap crap tiny budget 2 door midget car I paid for. As an opportunity presents I lookup and say AMEN and treasure all gifts. So the next day I extended rental from 1 week to 3. A week later I said I need to extend to 6 weeks. All was ok until a few nights ago the car hire boss realized I had 171 euro a day van for 12 euros. They said they would charge my credit card the difference. I begged and said that's all the money I have for my next operation on Wednesday. Ie 5000euro tace 37 to the lung and liver.
Well as a miracle they backed down. I fight in every direction. But I appreciate all help. Is not all help from God. IT IS!
Crippling pain equals years on the planet. Simple such it up and thank god that I understand the nature of his miraculous healing immune system.
A few weeks of pain for extra years. Actually the more pain I feel the more confident I get. I might walk real slow now. I mean the snails are laughing at the young old cripple even. And I smile and breathe and think I'm alive thank you god.
Take away message I suspect is the intensity of auto immune mirrors potential tumor destruction!
Wow I've had almost all of these
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A NICE COMMENT COLONTOWN
And so... His blog is easy to find... Not easy to follow. It reminds me of "Flowers for Algernon." At times, Peter, you write brilliantly, like the scholar you must be, but at other times the text is barely coherent. You must be sleep-blogging, at such times. Or drugged. It is apparent that you are desperate to cure yourself, and hopeful that others can be cured. You are frustrated at the slow pace of science in your home country of Australia... You have faith in God, but like me, you probably do not hope for a supernatural miracle. And after all... If belief or faith could heal some, but all others had to rely on science and medicine, isn't it more Christlike to do all we can to support advancements in science so that all of God's children may be healed-- including those who don't believe in Him? Keep the faith and keep up the fight. Your intensity and commitment to your cause are admirable. I feel, by contrast, complacent. Perhaps lazy. I would like to be cured and live long. I would like it to happen without a lot of effort and risk, on my part. I wish that all cancer patients could feel the oddly unexpected peace that I've been experiencing. I am unable to determine where it comes from. I didn't ask for it. It feels almost selfish and indulgent to be so utterly relaxed and happy. But it also feels like confidence-- that I WILL be well. That I am well, despite the scans still showing spots that suggest tumors. That whether I live or die I am loved by God and will be with him, wholly undeserving but welcome, just by virtue of accepting his invitation. As anyone may. NOW NICE IS NOT ENOUGH FOR THE WISDOM HEREIN.
MY REPLY
What I do is ENOUGH, in fact perfect. Our BEST is ENOUGH. If we learn from each other that's ENOUGH. I just contemplate LOVE ONE ANOTHER AS I HAVE LOVED YOU. Great to read, great to say and bliss to live with in your heart guiding your steps. All causes merge into one. I am aware my journey is unique and I feel duty bound to share.
I like the power of ENOUGH, I don't want friends and readers feeling pressured. After all who eats everything on a seafood buffet? I used too but that was 60kg ago. That was greedy and foolish and I have learned my lesson the hard way!
BEGGING FOR MERCY AND ANOTHER MIRACLE I got nothing to loose
Dear ctechlabs,
My German doctor said I must visit you. I have metastatic colorectal cancer diagnosed May 20th to lungs liver and peritoneal.
I am an immunotherapy support officer. I help others and try to survive.
I would like a jacket for Christmas. I am aware of theories and methods of action and I would be honored to join trial.
My money is almost gone and with it my life. So your prompt answer appreciated. I am generally fit but recently heavy treatment has caused much pain and disability.
Is one day sufficient to get the jacket. I do scans Wednesday 8AM and fly straight to jackarta.
PLEASE PLEASE CONFIRM ADDRESS AND APPOINTMENT. I BEG FOR URGENT HELP.
CALL ME PLEASE +61411527660. I am in Germany NOW. I have a ticket to Sydney I can change so I can fly frankfurt jakarta Sydney and not loose any money.
But I need an answer very very fast. I already have many miracles. I know good medicine that's why I am begging and pushing at the same time.
I suffer much. I share my hope and success. None of us stage 4 has time to waste. Now I know about you I try
MY SPECIAL XMAS JACKET is all I need.
http://petertrayhurn.blogspot.com.au/
Cheers,
Pete
