To be alive to say thank you to all of my friends for their kind is wishes on my 50th birthday whether you came to the party or not if you've read my blog and said a prayer I thank you from the bottom of my heart
For if you've loved and cared for me a little in the very realest way you are with me now and you were with me at the party and I am very very grateful for your love and care believe it or not as I said love is the most healing power and I have absolute faith that I will prevail again
The party was absolutely fantastic full of surprises I never did the rsvp's properly so I never knew who was coming or going or staying somehow the 45 seats for the adults worked out perfectly and another table for the kids by the window .
Old friends and new friends and every type in between from near and far they all bought with them treasured memories of experiences of Diving holidays, of Life Saving medical instances, of my university computing science degree in the strangest way they tell the story of me reflected in the memories of my friends
The seriousness of my illness in the challenge before me was hidden behind everyone smiles but I feel they have confidence in me we didn't really talk about it too much but I did ask some of my dearest friends to stand by my wife and children incase additional challenges come to pass in case I pass or while I'm away
So I got some lovely cards and I think I will just pack them in my suitcase and open them in Germany after treatments
One of my best friends and my best man from our wedding 22 years ago time for breakfast he was visiting from the Blue Mountains we talked about the party and life and about serious things of wills and estates in my multimillion dollar Empire
It's a blessing and a curse his wealth and my lack of health the kids jokes and jokes a million here a million there a million everywhere and I smiled and smiled
This cannot happen to me I'm invincible eternal why on my birthday cake I put down 150 not 50 because that's how long I'm going to live 100 more years not 100 more days if I have my way and if God's still looking up on me favorably 2 Grantley additional miracles or to give my old miracle a little bit more staying power
But for me to stay on this fine planet I really have to go and I have to go now just like we have the urgent need to pee I have the urgent need to fly or I am definitely going to die much much sooner then I would otherwise
My feet are swollen a little bit and I have to contemplate what's going wrong what is failing inside me but I put it away and I pack and pray we watch the movie as a family together The Secret Life of pets
I might do on my blog The Secret Life of the cancer Survivor miracle I kiss my wife during the movies and it was as sweet as sweet could be. It maybe the last kiss this lifetime. It was a good one!
This very precious unusual marriage we share. from the cold shoulder to the Warmest kiss I do not have the energy to seek to understand but I do enjoy the finest in the memories of the love we share and shared but I look to the Future for new love in new places.
I could not have wanted for a better party in some ways it was like awake but I'm not dead yet maybe I'll get 2 wakes.
So I've dropped my son for an afternoon play and his face is full of Glee and I watch a pretty cherry blossom Bloom and I cry another to you because I leave my family again in God's fine hands
But my fine family can see the fine esteem and wonderful friends that have graced my life and give me enormous energy love and support
It's so strange to have this connection with amazing people the briefest holidays together or lifelong friendships or brand new friendships
I could share a thousand stories that the evening brought back into my mind the Treasures of my life near and far but I'll tell them all in one tale of a priceless gift from a man who is climbing a very very high Mountain to leave the ashes of his father and a friend and a scarf of his wife all dead from cancer and his gift to me was a homemade wine that he and his father had picked from the vine. His other gift handmade olive oil
It's so crazy but with every single hug handshake kiss and smile I felt my Cancer dissolving I know I am the luckiest man alive maybe we all are
They all said I looked so good and I probably did my wife looks good my daughter stunning my son's laughter Echo through the club it was a great night had by all The Lobster was spectacular and I had the most deadly waffle ice cream caramel sauce dessert without regret
For the Ketogenic specialist it was like a last meal for my tumors made a rest in pieces
We built on the concept of Death by Chocolate to death by waffle and ice cream so instead of suicide we've come up with a new term for me called or waffleoside.
I enjoyed a mouthful of ice cream with chocolate during the movie from my wife's ice cream cone I sipped 1 or 2 sets of her cappuccino and as my traditional form in movies I fell asleep and woke at the end 1 hand-held why my wife one hand held by my daughter and my son's laughter echoing in the movies
We walked home my son and I in the sun holding hands cuddling for he knows I'm going. I told him the greatest Lesson of my life is to stand by and love to your wife anti hugged me even more for the truth is I never know if or when I'll be blessed to come back
The essence and lessons of this life I have taught by example to my children. This gives me the freedom to take the risk I have to take to try to stay alive to find a way to beat the cancer
My sms messages are cute
Hi helen, it was great seeing you as my phones been dead but its resurrected now and so must i. So i fly or die my dearest friend.
Lots of love
Pete
