http://www.dwightmckee.com/category/cancer/ dwight is fantastic, great concise material. just follow it all. Go hard, as fast as you can. Just like me on the autobahn.
no more chemo, the revolution is coming, alas the conventional system needs to evolve faster than our tumours
rens amazing blog and journey, i am so jealous of his expression and style, we each have our strong points
http://medicalxpress.com/news/2013-06-cancer-metastatic-tumor-hybrid-cell.html#inlRlv bingo
colonchat infection and recurrence hallwang wisdom everywhere i look. and the aussieoncs and surgeons said its bullshiit, i could shove more than their words some place i had a rectal tumour.
http://www.colonchat.net/forum/viewtopic.php?f=1&t=1055&p=3231#p3231 alway pushing the envelope
i woke peaceful 4.30am from the opensky commune domitory, the guys and girls were all asleep around me, sunday night a special night, the guru did a wonderful talk, google openky to watch. its a bit dry but i loved the discussion about authority and personal responsibility and its implications for the doctor patient relationship. it was so different to waking up on my own each day for the last 10 months in germany. I am missing my family and friends in sydney. alas I will be away for a very long time if healing is not a gift in gods plan for me.
http://www.openskyhouse.org/en/index.php some lovelly ideas to help me reaffirm the peaceful life i seek and the healing that follows. have an explore if you are interested.
the deeper i goto into meditation, the clearer I see my own personal kniavity in trying to rescue so many that are not interested. I guess I basically projected my survival instincts onto everyone else, and then i have really been hyper critical of everyone elses failure to adopt my strategies. now given the dissapointing results of ted and ren from their perspectives, hallwang and the german miracle is pretty elusive. To uneash hallwang full healing power you need your healing energy, i have met very few who are living with peace and love in their hearts, the anger of cancer the formost aspect of their lives, or the medical treatment obsession. thats where if hallwang was more focused this burden could be lifted from the patients shoulders, allowing them to find the full healing power within , while experiencing the joy of the blackforest and its peace.
soits late and the rest of this super quick, opensky is where i belong, i need healing love, i need it in abundance. they are a wonderful aware enlightened community. i could bring to them a vision of their own mortality, if they find it in their hearts t care for me, they will get a zest life and health that is lacking. i see the irony that we pursue mental enlightment, but not physical strength, and robust health. i am such a health nazi. evenian gawler and petria king have missed the opportunity of exercise maybe they will be interested, i can simply live by my learning and experience and share my insights and do my exercises.
the opensky internet plaform and the three weekly videos got my interest, a platform to reach millions of ill and stressed, surely cancer is the ultimate fast to track enlightenment, mind you you cannot grab enightment, its just like todays magnificent dawn, it just is. when your awareness merges into the beauty of the dawn, well then you are enlivend, awake and in awe. i think i spend a majority of my day in awe of the wonders of existence. all my interactions are magically and a touch flirtation with the nurses. my masses of testosterone are wasted, alas. its nice to the the intention to be peaceful, to live life with the intention. I found that my peace of mind has come when just living, ironically in the most stressful situations, i see others stressed, and i exist perplexed at there pain and emotional anxiety and wonder what all the fuss is about. they certainly dont see the magic of life to through as another curve ball. every curve ball , every callenge the life dishes i think great, i must still be alive, thats my mantra really constant growth, fueled by curve balls. cancer provides the best opportunity to gain enlightment quickly, given our prognosis well i think this is often should be our dominant goal.
soi seek enlightment, i notice it when i feel this wonderous feeling. like when i write my blog. i wonder if my kids will red this and be proud of therefathers journey. we pray and meditate. in our family surviving peacefully in ellies chaos, well that chaos has taught me much about life, love and hope. i still have hope for us. yes the eternaloptimistic. i must have the genes for optimism.
i checked into a top hotel near sebenhuner clinic, got a morning coffee enema in and made to the 8am fasting blood tests, they accessed my port, my views are a bit hammered from nesslehut therapies. They dont like accessing ports due to infection risk.
back to the hotel for breakfast and then to dr vogel, enoute i tried to fix phone and buy laptop power supply. its good being off the net.
vogel went from 10.24 to 4.24. i must have done a few rosaries and much deep meditation lieing in the hospital beds. i had a great discuss with thomas. he is happy no ascites, no large growth. he has treated other parts of the liver and interestly wants to treat liver again in 11 days. thisis very unusual, its the super vogel 1 2 punch i call it. the clinical basis is greater quick control. i am blessed to be his special patient, to think i can do this, while sebenhuner ipt, 2dg, infusions, hyerthermia. screwing the budget completely, going all out, no questions asked. sebenhuner will never say , pete cut back on x or Z. i like to test these doctors unique clinical perspectives when applied to me. we discussed tace injected gamma delta, but cell therapy has ethical limitations, i pointed out i am the perfect healthy rat for the test and let the offer lsimply sit. i said it would be a good post for the upcoming conference.
So hallwang will always be the point man, but the referal to nessleut, and now my selfreferal to sebenhuner. shows the point loyalty to a clinic is as fatal as loyalty to an onc. just find therapies that work for you, really work, and keep trying while you breathe, oh and inhale in peace and love and exhale fear and doubt. the intention to live each and everyday with passion and appreciation serves me well. my personal sense of joy tangible in my constant smile. i gave vogels secretary a warm hug goodye today. so few do that, nothing needed in return, but she smiled warmly. theconnnection of to souls by a simple smile. hug you are away from your family you get starved by lack of hugs.
ren turned up a few minutes before my vegie dinner, we talked, he is like my little brother i never had, he has got a challenge before him as i do, i can only be with him and smile. we will sit in each others senenhuner consults, and compare notes and strategies. if my strategies fail to arrest tumour growwth i will be in ren shoes soon enough. despite his challenges he is excellent company, when to go back onto systemic chemo and give away the german therapies made my heart gringe, but i know its reasonable question in his circumstances. hopefullynesslehut and the liver magic bypass will help. i told this to ren many months ago, with hindsight going as hard as all fCCCCK from the first opportunity seems pruedent. playing catchup with a metastatic illness is like roulette with a loaded gun, you die sooner than you think or want. so GO HARD FAST, and thats generally no chemo, but get a quote from hallwang, the clinics strong point is strategy. for some reason the failed to finish his viral anti sense portocol. hallwang is far from perfect, but its still the best clinic since sliced bread. i have this firrm impression based on many other patients experiences at other clinics, they clever and alive ones end up at hallwwang eventually. itsfull house at the moment, which is wonderful dr kopic and schwarz need the practice. i love watching these doctors under pressure, they really fire then. sorry but all the cancer patients 10000 bullshit questions about the 3000 supplemmets and diets they take each day get simply ignored. and as they should, the supplement obsession syndrome is deadly. and
my daily life is best reality tv show, full of real life and death drama, that keeps me focused. my hope comes from the constant miracles i see on a weekly basis, alas not everyone, but enough for me to hve genuine hope for my survival and so many other guests. but why they wait so long to come ? i will never know.
i owe david bell my sydney onc my life, he said go first, i did and i am alive and well, with a few cells still. i deeply appreciate this gifted and compassionate and brave man.
enjoy the food, relax and appreciate the care and the medicine. go for a walk and let the healing peace of the blackforest bring you peace. when you have deep peace healing follows. so all things that distrubpeace are barriers to healing, its sad but true, and most often they are the patients themselves, their attitudes. i see this everyday, it breaks my heart, that why space from hallwang is essential. well space from the patients self perpetuated suffering. i keep on saying lets go for a walk in the forest, or lets go for a sauna or to the gym and nobody follows well once a super hot bunny went to the sauna, but thats a long time ago.
I had no nasty side effects fromtace 6 to the liver, got started in under 3 hours getting local hyperthermia and a brief chat sebenhuner, he is interesting and approachable. i wonder if he has any idea what a pain in the ass i am. i reserve that secret, we share, we will find out soon enough. what do you expect when i have rectal cancer,, ass pain just comes with the diagnosis for free. i had more than my fair share, so dishing it out well seems fair.
I had a brief chat tonight with mikael, me friendly doctor, i thanked him for the opensky referal. his initial injection of hope and the hallwang referal support was life saving. He underestimates his contribution, in this sense he is humble. i hope he finds a way to control his professional manner so he is successful with nesslehut. so many lives will be saved, mikael is really being plugged into the big time, he needs to really backoff the over the top alternatives, to many nesslhut enemies of already fringe experimental medicine. give them soamunition and their goes my life, so mikael you have been warned, listen to the smartest cancer patient on the planet, please. gogently just likei dont' , alas i have learnt this go gently approach fro opensky. we cannot risk all the amazing success of nesslehut or vogel forr that matter, they dont need to take any further unproven risks in the their clinical practice. they must protect and grow their reputation by playing to exissting strong points. the only concessions is getting in principle supporrt from dagmar about gcmaf, sheeep brains and tallberg and the range of cancers applicable.
the medicine that can save millions if adopted, can be shutdowwn by one bad case.
i am blessed, i am alivee, godlbless us all. i am missing steve, his death brng back all the others.
soits fantastic news, i have a metastatic illness, the report could have been worse, the situation is improving. i have faith and gratittude for the medicine, for my health and my life and the love thats in it. yesi deeply love myself, why else would i try so hard to save myself. but the essence of survival will be detachment from self and the love of others.
the irony is when i am cured, i while coming riding back into csn, saying these therapies really worked, maybe one or two out of 100s will follow. so few exercise, follow a strict diet, that is the nature of cancer care at the present.
one day the senior person in the multi disciplienary teams will be the spirritual consultant,that a few years away.
thanks for all your support and prayers. the kindness strengthen my resolve. we will never fail if we love life passionately. to have someone to love, to hug, to massage well that would be healing. maybeopeensky might help me take my healing and growth to a whole new level. i wonder how the community feels about us mortally challenged prospective new members, at leeast we can wash dishes and smile. they were teaching me german words in the kitchen, that ws so sweet. i so much needed to leave the cancer world behind. this weekend i m torn, opensky or hallwang, i thinkopensky will win easily. i want to take ren and teach him deep qigong.
I am so blessed, great friends, great doctors and a great life, despite or due to a few unhealthy cells. what will tomorrow bring ? who knows, but now dreams, godlbless us all. maybe 8 hours of meditation today, hence the big post. petria king ad ian gawler sharing the joys of meditation with me and so many others is their greatest healing contribution.
in the stillness of meditation i find hope and my life is wonderous. i shared my dreams of an opensky community for cancer patients using many of my choosen therapies ie saunas, enemas, organic food, love and peace and the worlds best medicine. ohi left out exercise, its a dream, i have a community of one at the moment. its an open free invitation to live at 11 promenade, hallwang. maybe ongoing love and peace is the misisng ingredient to convert hallwangs short term clinical gains into enduring remissions. then again maybe i am dreaming. its a nice dream.
no more chemo, the revolution is coming, alas the conventional system needs to evolve faster than our tumours
rens amazing blog and journey, i am so jealous of his expression and style, we each have our strong points
http://medicalxpress.com/news/2013-06-cancer-metastatic-tumor-hybrid-cell.html#inlRlv bingo
colonchat infection and recurrence hallwang wisdom everywhere i look. and the aussieoncs and surgeons said its bullshiit, i could shove more than their words some place i had a rectal tumour.
http://www.colonchat.net/forum/viewtopic.php?f=1&t=1055&p=3231#p3231 alway pushing the envelope
i woke peaceful 4.30am from the opensky commune domitory, the guys and girls were all asleep around me, sunday night a special night, the guru did a wonderful talk, google openky to watch. its a bit dry but i loved the discussion about authority and personal responsibility and its implications for the doctor patient relationship. it was so different to waking up on my own each day for the last 10 months in germany. I am missing my family and friends in sydney. alas I will be away for a very long time if healing is not a gift in gods plan for me.
http://www.openskyhouse.org/en/index.php some lovelly ideas to help me reaffirm the peaceful life i seek and the healing that follows. have an explore if you are interested.
the deeper i goto into meditation, the clearer I see my own personal kniavity in trying to rescue so many that are not interested. I guess I basically projected my survival instincts onto everyone else, and then i have really been hyper critical of everyone elses failure to adopt my strategies. now given the dissapointing results of ted and ren from their perspectives, hallwang and the german miracle is pretty elusive. To uneash hallwang full healing power you need your healing energy, i have met very few who are living with peace and love in their hearts, the anger of cancer the formost aspect of their lives, or the medical treatment obsession. thats where if hallwang was more focused this burden could be lifted from the patients shoulders, allowing them to find the full healing power within , while experiencing the joy of the blackforest and its peace.
soits late and the rest of this super quick, opensky is where i belong, i need healing love, i need it in abundance. they are a wonderful aware enlightened community. i could bring to them a vision of their own mortality, if they find it in their hearts t care for me, they will get a zest life and health that is lacking. i see the irony that we pursue mental enlightment, but not physical strength, and robust health. i am such a health nazi. evenian gawler and petria king have missed the opportunity of exercise maybe they will be interested, i can simply live by my learning and experience and share my insights and do my exercises.
the opensky internet plaform and the three weekly videos got my interest, a platform to reach millions of ill and stressed, surely cancer is the ultimate fast to track enlightenment, mind you you cannot grab enightment, its just like todays magnificent dawn, it just is. when your awareness merges into the beauty of the dawn, well then you are enlivend, awake and in awe. i think i spend a majority of my day in awe of the wonders of existence. all my interactions are magically and a touch flirtation with the nurses. my masses of testosterone are wasted, alas. its nice to the the intention to be peaceful, to live life with the intention. I found that my peace of mind has come when just living, ironically in the most stressful situations, i see others stressed, and i exist perplexed at there pain and emotional anxiety and wonder what all the fuss is about. they certainly dont see the magic of life to through as another curve ball. every curve ball , every callenge the life dishes i think great, i must still be alive, thats my mantra really constant growth, fueled by curve balls. cancer provides the best opportunity to gain enlightment quickly, given our prognosis well i think this is often should be our dominant goal.
soi seek enlightment, i notice it when i feel this wonderous feeling. like when i write my blog. i wonder if my kids will red this and be proud of therefathers journey. we pray and meditate. in our family surviving peacefully in ellies chaos, well that chaos has taught me much about life, love and hope. i still have hope for us. yes the eternaloptimistic. i must have the genes for optimism.
i checked into a top hotel near sebenhuner clinic, got a morning coffee enema in and made to the 8am fasting blood tests, they accessed my port, my views are a bit hammered from nesslehut therapies. They dont like accessing ports due to infection risk.
back to the hotel for breakfast and then to dr vogel, enoute i tried to fix phone and buy laptop power supply. its good being off the net.
vogel went from 10.24 to 4.24. i must have done a few rosaries and much deep meditation lieing in the hospital beds. i had a great discuss with thomas. he is happy no ascites, no large growth. he has treated other parts of the liver and interestly wants to treat liver again in 11 days. thisis very unusual, its the super vogel 1 2 punch i call it. the clinical basis is greater quick control. i am blessed to be his special patient, to think i can do this, while sebenhuner ipt, 2dg, infusions, hyerthermia. screwing the budget completely, going all out, no questions asked. sebenhuner will never say , pete cut back on x or Z. i like to test these doctors unique clinical perspectives when applied to me. we discussed tace injected gamma delta, but cell therapy has ethical limitations, i pointed out i am the perfect healthy rat for the test and let the offer lsimply sit. i said it would be a good post for the upcoming conference.
So hallwang will always be the point man, but the referal to nessleut, and now my selfreferal to sebenhuner. shows the point loyalty to a clinic is as fatal as loyalty to an onc. just find therapies that work for you, really work, and keep trying while you breathe, oh and inhale in peace and love and exhale fear and doubt. the intention to live each and everyday with passion and appreciation serves me well. my personal sense of joy tangible in my constant smile. i gave vogels secretary a warm hug goodye today. so few do that, nothing needed in return, but she smiled warmly. theconnnection of to souls by a simple smile. hug you are away from your family you get starved by lack of hugs.
ren turned up a few minutes before my vegie dinner, we talked, he is like my little brother i never had, he has got a challenge before him as i do, i can only be with him and smile. we will sit in each others senenhuner consults, and compare notes and strategies. if my strategies fail to arrest tumour growwth i will be in ren shoes soon enough. despite his challenges he is excellent company, when to go back onto systemic chemo and give away the german therapies made my heart gringe, but i know its reasonable question in his circumstances. hopefullynesslehut and the liver magic bypass will help. i told this to ren many months ago, with hindsight going as hard as all fCCCCK from the first opportunity seems pruedent. playing catchup with a metastatic illness is like roulette with a loaded gun, you die sooner than you think or want. so GO HARD FAST, and thats generally no chemo, but get a quote from hallwang, the clinics strong point is strategy. for some reason the failed to finish his viral anti sense portocol. hallwang is far from perfect, but its still the best clinic since sliced bread. i have this firrm impression based on many other patients experiences at other clinics, they clever and alive ones end up at hallwwang eventually. itsfull house at the moment, which is wonderful dr kopic and schwarz need the practice. i love watching these doctors under pressure, they really fire then. sorry but all the cancer patients 10000 bullshit questions about the 3000 supplemmets and diets they take each day get simply ignored. and as they should, the supplement obsession syndrome is deadly. and
my daily life is best reality tv show, full of real life and death drama, that keeps me focused. my hope comes from the constant miracles i see on a weekly basis, alas not everyone, but enough for me to hve genuine hope for my survival and so many other guests. but why they wait so long to come ? i will never know.
i owe david bell my sydney onc my life, he said go first, i did and i am alive and well, with a few cells still. i deeply appreciate this gifted and compassionate and brave man.
enjoy the food, relax and appreciate the care and the medicine. go for a walk and let the healing peace of the blackforest bring you peace. when you have deep peace healing follows. so all things that distrubpeace are barriers to healing, its sad but true, and most often they are the patients themselves, their attitudes. i see this everyday, it breaks my heart, that why space from hallwang is essential. well space from the patients self perpetuated suffering. i keep on saying lets go for a walk in the forest, or lets go for a sauna or to the gym and nobody follows well once a super hot bunny went to the sauna, but thats a long time ago.
I had no nasty side effects fromtace 6 to the liver, got started in under 3 hours getting local hyperthermia and a brief chat sebenhuner, he is interesting and approachable. i wonder if he has any idea what a pain in the ass i am. i reserve that secret, we share, we will find out soon enough. what do you expect when i have rectal cancer,, ass pain just comes with the diagnosis for free. i had more than my fair share, so dishing it out well seems fair.
I had a brief chat tonight with mikael, me friendly doctor, i thanked him for the opensky referal. his initial injection of hope and the hallwang referal support was life saving. He underestimates his contribution, in this sense he is humble. i hope he finds a way to control his professional manner so he is successful with nesslehut. so many lives will be saved, mikael is really being plugged into the big time, he needs to really backoff the over the top alternatives, to many nesslhut enemies of already fringe experimental medicine. give them soamunition and their goes my life, so mikael you have been warned, listen to the smartest cancer patient on the planet, please. gogently just likei dont' , alas i have learnt this go gently approach fro opensky. we cannot risk all the amazing success of nesslehut or vogel forr that matter, they dont need to take any further unproven risks in the their clinical practice. they must protect and grow their reputation by playing to exissting strong points. the only concessions is getting in principle supporrt from dagmar about gcmaf, sheeep brains and tallberg and the range of cancers applicable.
the medicine that can save millions if adopted, can be shutdowwn by one bad case.
i am blessed, i am alivee, godlbless us all. i am missing steve, his death brng back all the others.
soits fantastic news, i have a metastatic illness, the report could have been worse, the situation is improving. i have faith and gratittude for the medicine, for my health and my life and the love thats in it. yesi deeply love myself, why else would i try so hard to save myself. but the essence of survival will be detachment from self and the love of others.
the irony is when i am cured, i while coming riding back into csn, saying these therapies really worked, maybe one or two out of 100s will follow. so few exercise, follow a strict diet, that is the nature of cancer care at the present.
one day the senior person in the multi disciplienary teams will be the spirritual consultant,that a few years away.
thanks for all your support and prayers. the kindness strengthen my resolve. we will never fail if we love life passionately. to have someone to love, to hug, to massage well that would be healing. maybeopeensky might help me take my healing and growth to a whole new level. i wonder how the community feels about us mortally challenged prospective new members, at leeast we can wash dishes and smile. they were teaching me german words in the kitchen, that ws so sweet. i so much needed to leave the cancer world behind. this weekend i m torn, opensky or hallwang, i thinkopensky will win easily. i want to take ren and teach him deep qigong.
I am so blessed, great friends, great doctors and a great life, despite or due to a few unhealthy cells. what will tomorrow bring ? who knows, but now dreams, godlbless us all. maybe 8 hours of meditation today, hence the big post. petria king ad ian gawler sharing the joys of meditation with me and so many others is their greatest healing contribution.
in the stillness of meditation i find hope and my life is wonderous. i shared my dreams of an opensky community for cancer patients using many of my choosen therapies ie saunas, enemas, organic food, love and peace and the worlds best medicine. ohi left out exercise, its a dream, i have a community of one at the moment. its an open free invitation to live at 11 promenade, hallwang. maybe ongoing love and peace is the misisng ingredient to convert hallwangs short term clinical gains into enduring remissions. then again maybe i am dreaming. its a nice dream.