Focus and study everyday is my mantra, I wish many are doing the immunotherapy university, but alas only a few. I am really dreaming and getting ready to enter life long remission based around managing my immune system.
I was looking up Mobeen syed next immunotherapy lecture when I saw this one, so today I was unfaithful. The video was called Regulation of Anti-Tumor Immunity: Potential Rol…: I watched this a few times today while I gettingoncothermia to my lungs and liver. As I have some thyroid nodules and issues I figured I better watch it.
I showed the staff at Dr Siebenhuener's how I make my MAF 314 probiotic yogurt, in their kitchen. Tomorrow a few more simple steps. And Friday morning yummy healthy GCMAF yogurt. I had a good talk with Dr Siebenhuener about the practicality of patients making the yogurt and reall how few patients are prepared to put in the time, effort and expense to make the yogurt. No easy answers, but I wanted to share what I do and they were interested, I explained lots about the gut and the immune system to the wonderful nurses and doctors.
I have booked my weekend retreat at yoga vidya bad mien , the only issue I found was that they dont have english yoga training courses, I could really see myself studying their full time. The only prerequisite is I must learn German. I followed up my visa application today, here's hoping for some good news.
Ozvit has been prescibed for my LPS from clostridia when initially Dr Schilling recomended antibiotics. The antibiotics recommednation came on the back of 4 sessions of rectal ozone, to attempt to resolve these, but they still appeared in the serum blood test. As I am being treated at Dr Siebenhueners I am graciously accepting the medical advice, when in rome do as the romans.
I order some milk thistle seeds 1kg to add to my seed mix I have with my daily maf 314 yogurt. I also ordered some magnesium bath salts, to get ready for my time at the coutnry farmhouse near Duderstadt. Yes its time again to do another DC vaccine, if this one is as successful as the last I could be in remission. I maybe already, who knows, this illness keeps me on my toes.
I am nervous that I am undertreating, ie not doing heavy b17 or artemisinin or IPT, but I am seeing if the reduced and financially prudent protocol gets results with the CEA. On that subject I am doing cancer markers tomorrow. My habit is to do the markers on entry and exit at a treating Dr. Yes some overlap, as I will redo markers at Dr NEsslehuts on Monday, I will find the price out and decide.
So I had a nice 2 hours Thai massage, the older lovely massues could not stop laughing how big I was. My arms and legs seemed just to much for her to handle, the frequent laughter was good for my soul.
Today is a break from serious study, I did do four enemas, so I am getting into Gersin territory, some scieence about coffee enemas, not that convincing, but I am hooked, so it makes no difference. I often meditate or pray while doing my coffee enemas, if your interested in the potential benefits do some research.
I asked a close friend about if my results are due to my attitude or the science and therapies. They said science. Funny I believe its attitude and prayer. I guess time will tell. I am feeling decidely mortal and aware that so many with metastatic colorectal have big challenges. Even that awareness put some fear or doubts in my heart about how long my God will keep on granting miracles.
One thing that you could imagine, is I am constantly asking God for profound and complete healing, for me and all my friends, so if you read the blog, you at least have some good prayers coming your way. I am much closer to God as a result of my cancer, especially my awareness of the beauty of creation and his love. As I was laying on the bathroom floor alternating between prayer and meditation, some doubts and fears entered my mind. I moved my hands my head and symbolically captured the negative thoughts in my hands and moved my hand towards the toilet bowl and through the thoughts into it. I then returned to simple, peaceful breathing. Its such a simple and effective way of dealing with the anxieties of cancer that manifest at different times. I note all my friends have anxieties in different forms, I hope you all handle them effectively. For me, the flushing them away really works, it certainly justifies the time and effort of enemas, even if the biological benefits are questioned.
When all is said and done, my focus to stay in a state of joyfulness, despite the clear uncertainy of the illness may very well, pull me over the finish line.
No earth shattering research today, some of the papers of the last few weeks, are really un beatable in terms of quality and relevance for my treatments. The study and the review of Mobeens lectures, my grasping of all the material deeply, has really been with me in a profound way. My awareness of my immune system, the system keeping me alive despite this illness, is so complete. I really cannot explain this except to say I often am conciously aware of my immune system, doing oncothermia, or while eating, or while doing enemas or while getting the massage, even while typing this blog. My immune system is doing its work, now I must go to sleep, so it can get some rest also and do the nightly house keeping.
Thanks for the prayers and the kind thoughts. I do so want to get into remission and be on the plane thats booked for the 11th April, but if I am not in remission, I will need to stay and get the job done. The only caveat on that might be implementing some of the GOLF immunotherapy chemo protocols in support of my vacination program. Then going home would serve a clear clinical purpose and I could get the scans redone. I am sure my Doctors will also have good suggestions closer to the 11th April.
The clinical success of the past month has created a certain expectation that it will continue, its challenging to cope with the issues around this, but ultimately I spent alot of time thanking God for the blessings he has already given me.