parts of an email to a friend....
I just got on to the shared computer here, no internet besides this and no phone. the retreat should be good, its so lovelly here in the forest. I am working in the garden each day nd its good for me. this kind older lady cooldeep, was showing me herbs in the forest, they tasted really good.
Spiritual retreat
Its about not changing the world, but my perspective on the world. I need to leverage the wisdom of yoga to help god achieve the miracle I seek. Of course I have a strong desire to survive, if you read this blog that seems clear. right now I am seeking the peace of the magnificanet forest, the healing energy here, the amazing caring yoga vida people, the nutritious food, the experienced yoga teachers. but all these are like window dressing, the real battle is developing my soul and mind in a joyful but not frantic manner. lets say a focused manner, I already have lela mattas tip which is to focus on a single point of light in deep meditation. what been a little perplexing is to acknowledge the deeps.
This computer turns off at 10.45pm, so this post was incomplete, the next day was busy, but I got up 6.15am fresh and ready to meditate, which I did. Alas I had a coughing fit and needd to leave the group so as not to disturb them anymore.
Yesterday lectures were wonderful, but I was feeling very drained, I did all the yoga 4 hours worth and 3 hours work in the garden, that was most enjoyable, picking the herbs for the evening meal and salad dressings. Alot of love and effort goes into the food we eat here.
At lunch lovelly yoga dancer chatted away about her interesting life.
At dinner I took the opportunity to sit with swmi g, and we had pleasant conversation, towards the end of the meal another very experienced yoga lady came to join us, she is doing the same spiritual retreat, well she turns out to be a cancer clinical trials researcher for a big drug company and was most amazed by my blessings. she appreciates gods miracle from a scientific point of view, definitely a great contact and I hope a friend. The shared values of all at the ashram , seem to encourage a warm feeling of friendship with most participants and staff.
So in the hot sun yesterday this kind young lady named melanie gave me a mug a water. I was really touched by this simple act of caring. its these small kindnesses that make belong to the human race such a complelling desire. ie not to die from cancer, I am literally surrounded by love and I bearly know these people.
But from a man with a terminally joyful disposition, with a sense of imminense, not emminense. I treasure these simple kind acts, like the day before with getting liver herbs from the forest, or then the afternoon having delicious green smoothies. the staff do sense my desire for healing. They all say I look so healthy and strong, which I have to admit sounds much better than death warmed up. The mug from the water was accidentally smashed on the pavers, it shows the inpermenance of life but not of love. The mug of water in the sun is a good simple story.
I also found a bath, did an alkanizing bath and coffee enema combination after the evening prayers and am finally getting into deep meditative states. I woke the earliest I have in a while, the healing atmosphere of yoga vidya is working on me. I am very very grateful.
I wondered if my kids will regret me being away attempting to save my life the simple answer is no, they said go last time, they know what is at stake.
I thought my coughing was healed since I had a solid undisturbed sleep, alas a few minutes into group meditation I started coughing like an old smoker. If I get the coughing fixed, and I will, then prof axel rolle said he would look at taking the met out. I sense improvement everyday in my lungs, I do need them to be 100% for scuba diving. I still need my german health insurance finalised to do the lung surgery, otherwise its $25000 aud for both lobes. I do so want an expert review and treatment, imagine if I says its all clear and what needs to be treated is done, its another good dream.
I had my gcmaf yogurt at the ashram, that my frankfurt friend gave me. I have a world class diet, supplements and support, am I scared of cancer NO, its a gift from god to teach me about healing and biology and now to see the love of humanity and in particular my friends.
from rona, other friends are trying, have tried these oil products, I need to also one day. the interaction with the immune system has so much potential ie grass and dc vaccines
http://www.mediccanna.com/wp-content/uploads/2013/08/Patsos-et-al.-2005.-Cannabinoids-and-cancer.-potential-for-colorectal-cancer-therapy.pdf
This computer turns off at 10.45pm, so this post was incomplete, the next day was busy, but I got up 6.15am fresh and ready to meditate, which I did. Alas I had a coughing fit and needd to leave the group so as not to disturb them anymore.
Yesterday lectures were wonderful, but I was feeling very drained, I did all the yoga 4 hours worth and 3 hours work in the garden, that was most enjoyable, picking the herbs for the evening meal and salad dressings. Alot of love and effort goes into the food we eat here.
At lunch lovelly yoga dancer chatted away about her interesting life.
At dinner I took the opportunity to sit with swmi g, and we had pleasant conversation, towards the end of the meal another very experienced yoga lady came to join us, she is doing the same spiritual retreat, well she turns out to be a cancer clinical trials researcher for a big drug company and was most amazed by my blessings. she appreciates gods miracle from a scientific point of view, definitely a great contact and I hope a friend. The shared values of all at the ashram , seem to encourage a warm feeling of friendship with most participants and staff.
So in the hot sun yesterday this kind young lady named melanie gave me a mug a water. I was really touched by this simple act of caring. its these small kindnesses that make belong to the human race such a complelling desire. ie not to die from cancer, I am literally surrounded by love and I bearly know these people.
But from a man with a terminally joyful disposition, with a sense of imminense, not emminense. I treasure these simple kind acts, like the day before with getting liver herbs from the forest, or then the afternoon having delicious green smoothies. the staff do sense my desire for healing. They all say I look so healthy and strong, which I have to admit sounds much better than death warmed up. The mug from the water was accidentally smashed on the pavers, it shows the inpermenance of life but not of love. The mug of water in the sun is a good simple story.
I also found a bath, did an alkanizing bath and coffee enema combination after the evening prayers and am finally getting into deep meditative states. I woke the earliest I have in a while, the healing atmosphere of yoga vidya is working on me. I am very very grateful.
I wondered if my kids will regret me being away attempting to save my life the simple answer is no, they said go last time, they know what is at stake.
I thought my coughing was healed since I had a solid undisturbed sleep, alas a few minutes into group meditation I started coughing like an old smoker. If I get the coughing fixed, and I will, then prof axel rolle said he would look at taking the met out. I sense improvement everyday in my lungs, I do need them to be 100% for scuba diving. I still need my german health insurance finalised to do the lung surgery, otherwise its $25000 aud for both lobes. I do so want an expert review and treatment, imagine if I says its all clear and what needs to be treated is done, its another good dream.
I had my gcmaf yogurt at the ashram, that my frankfurt friend gave me. I have a world class diet, supplements and support, am I scared of cancer NO, its a gift from god to teach me about healing and biology and now to see the love of humanity and in particular my friends.
from rona, other friends are trying, have tried these oil products, I need to also one day. the interaction with the immune system has so much potential ie grass and dc vaccines
http://www.mediccanna.com/wp-content/uploads/2013/08/Patsos-et-al.-2005.-Cannabinoids-and-cancer.-potential-for-colorectal-cancer-therapy.pdf