God knows why. He really does.
I pray for us all, and my dear friend george who got an incurable terminal illness diagnosis very recently, not cancer. Please send his family and him some love. Tears are good for the soul. Google msa and parkinsons, if you want to get your mind away from cancer.
Alas god chooses our poisons, for us!
This life is joyfully challenging.
Saw prof morris, super surgeon, now he is called saint morris. He is the peritoneal god in oz, he is backing my mto claim for removab, so now I have the key doctors support morris, bell, berry and rafter. Adding in a few extra drs.
Getting mto off the ground a huge relief, not for the money, but for the PRECEDENT! I WILL NOT FAIL. WATCH THE MOVIE THE MAN WHO SUED GOD.
crp dropped 7.2 to 5.2, I need martins input, but no answer, this system pisses me off, trying to beat metastatic here, bind folded, deaf, dumb and mute .
Berry was on fire today, he is shit hot and compassionate, did dmso, b17, iv curcumin. Morris also ordered ct and pet prior to 25nov. We will look at xeloda results and 3 days per week infusions. What a shit hot regime, I am blessed and stink from dmso. A beautiful stench to me, pungent to wife and kids. They kick me out to germany because of the stink. Ha ha.
What's my cea doing? Getting it done rafters, screw medicare, I am fighting for my life every hour, these turkeys and every 3 months measures of markers.
Why not just put me out in the paddock and shoot me in the bloody head. This system has to change, like bloody yesterday.
Its not anger, just points for improvement. I am surrounded by angels, my mates who run my business just found 70k the big bank took without consent, I may have my next trips funds. Yippee. Also loan shark waiting with an appetite to eat my business at 16%, ouch. But saint james to the rescue, maybe at last a refinance based on asset and cashflow. Again my wonderful friends.
Without my business I would he dead, money saves us. Its a cruel truth.
So xeloda ok, feet ok, got constipation, but feeling pretty good.
My maf 314 super probiotic yogurt cultured so well.
Wife and I went for massages tonight, a small miracle and a large kindness, showing love. Patience and forgiveness my yogic strengths. Om om om.
I feel invincible, yes delusional as usual, not a bad way to live with a metastatic blessing.
The bigger the challenge the more god loves us. I must be nuts, as I sincerely believe this.
Bring it on, life is excellent.
May godbless us all.
In memory of david gbm died last october, tried dc vaccine, brave till the end. He is a hero to me, his wife and 3 kids. God please bless them, the loss of anothet father tugs the heart, but WE ONLY LOOSE WHEN WE STOP LOVING, LOVE NEVER DIES.
I am sending you positivity , strength and determination to carry on on your journey and wish you only good things
I GOT THIS MESSAGE TODAY, ITS MY WISH FOR US ALL, ALSO.
Good read about crp
https://www.google.com.au/url?sa=t&source=web&rct=j&ei=pIpjVPCICcK9mgWrkoKQBw&url=https://courses.washington.edu/pharm522/Week2/C-reactive%2520protein-%2520A%2520valuable%2520marker%2520of%2520sepsis%2520(ICM%25202002).pdf&ved=0CBoQFjAAOAo&usg=AFQjCNFR8JCbiMy_ICfopklEUtbSwk279g&sig2=6soXbM6dWDn_zcsv4w_wsA