I saw the movie The Boss tonight with my boss my wife it was fantastic
I saw the movie the boss last night with an my old and dear friend it was fantastic
I had dinner last night with another old best friend and he said that even in high school I had an amazing Zest for life and that he's followed my blog for all these years and that it's not likely to be helpful in detail for other people because other patients don't have all of the attributes that are going for me. Ie the money brains and balls.
Alas I see aspects of the truth in this and hence I am so very grateful but at least I've got some of the skills to help me be successful with this illness
But I still dream of finding ways to help others with terminal cancer. To find hope and have better results and in the short term the easiest thing that I can give to a few other people that come in contact with me is a little bit more hope and some inspiration and some guidance.
My feet have recovered from the marathon 5 days ago today I spend a few hours meditating and resting on a Sandy sunny beach while my wife was swimming in a freezing cold ocean pool.
I have also attended yesterday the alternative cancer support movement for some of my amazing alternative friends and they themselves are incredibly inspirational one of my dearest old cancer friends is completing a 42 day juice fast. I inspire inspiration.
I'm a little bit anxious as tomorrow morning at 8 a.m. I do my blood test this evening I dropped off for 24 hours of urine collection today which is going to test my minerals Metals and a few other urinary components I'm getting ready for heading back to Germany in 3 days. treatments are organised
So I'm soaking up every minute with my lovely family with my dogs and cats and fish. with my friends and I have to leave them very soon to go to my work which is trying to save my life.
Dear God Grant peace and healing and inspiration to all who read this blog especially my dearest friends with challenges. Grant them joy and healing. amen
So I still have my irrational hope and I hope that that hope is contagious in our Darkest Hour God can help us it's like turning on a light switch the difference between despair and hope maybe when people looking for hope find my story they may find some hope.
So an atom of Hope weighs more than all the negative mass in the universe.
So a little bit of extra hope, a little bit of extra joy in each life, in each family well that's enough to Change the World.
It's dawned on me recently that during my journey with this illness to recovery or death that it's particularly easy to be incredibly joyful when you get to remission or after you've had great results when the threat of death has effectively been removed but it is a far greater Triumph to live joyfully in the face of progression and imminent death.
That to be a true hero in my books takes real courage. too not give into despair when your on the brink of death just some of my thoughts on the subject and they're out of my head and into the blog and it's time for sleep.
I'm tired I've had my melatonin and my magnesium. the photos in the blog are of my son's amazing LEGO creations and I blog and he creates but now it's time for each of us father and son to Dream our dreams and he is the last one to bed so he turned the lights off while I press the publish button.
One final thought that crystal clear to me today is that almost every day is better than the last and that this present moment is really the very very best of my life and that coming so close to death on many occasions has given me this constant awareness of how lucky and grateful I should be and that in itself fence for me guarantees that every single breath I take is precious beyond belief
And therefore to the world I will appear completely insane as I said many times before but I feel quite comforted by the joy that surrounds me and my delusion.
What I will miss without a doubt in my family has been the sound of my wife's laughter that's what I don't hear in Germany but the Echoes bounce around my heart and they say laughter is good medicine and I really really really believe that.
