Im in the bastion of conventional oncology. A bit like custers last stand.
But i have lead a team of agents into the oncology practices and we are terrorists of the conventional system. The long term survivors doing alternatives in combination with conventional. Everyday is an experiment.
You see the gullible dieing ignorant trusting patients sit around me dieing. Getting full strength chemo poison pumped in with orange juice and apple juice.
They gave me a window chair. I had green tea and ham cheese tomato sandwhich but i gave them the bread back. It will be tragically ironic that the ketogenic diet maybe cheaper and more effective than chemotherapy. Maybe lower dose chemo and ketogenic and alternatives ie vit c is a way to go. The way for each of us unique as our tumours of our illness.
Lets give the tumour cells the energy to recover from the deadly chemo. Our health system is insane and we the patients need to fix it. Not our fat lazy gutless doctors. They are morally bankrupt as we who come in desperate need are killed mercilessly. I apologize that my emotions are a bit raw. I see such needless death and i guess thats my curse and cross to bear.
These fine doctors are weak willed prisoners of intentional ignorance of a system out of control. Just like the gas chambers in ww2
They make such a fuss of port hygiene when what they deliver is generally so toxic.
The lady next to me is really slurping her deadly juices. Godbless the poor trusting angel. We are often So terrorised by imminent death we suspend thought and hope and join in the mass conventional suicide.
I had a great chat to the pharmacy lady who is mastering public health policy.
I explained my story in detail. Thanked her for my keytruda and boxes of xeloda.
I want the pd1 mek braf drugs as per the trial that i covered weeks ago. Getting the trial drugs cheap means i can tweak the design of integrating holistic into the latest colorectal immunotherapy trial.
Thats really very very primitive. I did more effective immune therapies 4 years ago in germany.
So here we go. Im getting keytruda now as i type and ill hammer high dose vit c this arvo with specials.
So the balance between therapy and rest.
I got markers done and well see if the cea spike is a good therapy spike or something more sinister.
But all progression or regression just news like on the tv. Its what action we take.
Ive decided. High dose vit c. And the most essential medicine. My smile.
World war 3. They will give out toxic useless chemo and they will not allow me to keep my chemo port connected accessed. Ive explained my desire to use it immediately for alternative infusions of vitamin C.
There is very little support for cooperation with alternative therapies as you would expect.
Ive raised this issue before but I keep on trying.... thats ny strength and curse.
The infusion pumps finished.
So is this blog.
Humanity creates such suffering. My only answer is to pray and breathe and smile.
In our morally bankrupt society and our financially bankrupt health system i reused my green tea bag while expensive chemo is thoughtlessly delivered.
Some irony saving a few cents on a green tea bag or what we spend on drugs.
Imagine if drinking green tea was more effective than chemo. And the effect is enhanced by low carb.
Ill add taurolidine as an il1beta agonist to pd1 and gcmaf vit c.
I tried to explain my premise to the nurse. She explained her policy and i explained 5 infected ports due to conventional negligence. She cannot see my points. Few do.
The morals and ethics of health are complex. so ill smile, do low carb and play with myself. Ie my immune system that is.
Sometimes silence is golden and alas often its stained red the colour of blood and ignorance.
Like childbirth we have pain with new life and lots of pain as we evolve and our health system evolves.
As the kind and compassionate nurses say i love what i do. And they do. And they are admirable.
In this discussion who is guilty. So the buck stops at the top. Nurses deserve our support and compassion.
But the truth is there for all to see.
We choose what we see.
We choose the object of our focus!
I choose life and hope!
So i met an amazing man a long term survivor of neuroendocrine cancer. He ended up at hallwang but conventional saved him he believes. He has a similar tumour as little emily. I wonder if her tumour has the needed receptors.
So alternative doctors in many ways are equally blind as conventional to where conventional has strong points. Today i asked for 40% oxaliplaten at last minute to reduce mdsc.
A caring clever friend said one book for sugar one against. I said im in ketosis now but after sugery i had moderate glucose for 7 days. This is where we need medical leadership.
Alas much medical opinion is dressed as fact and i rely on gods wisdom to discern the difference and guide me. For which im very grateful.
Day by day i survive just and the challenges around us vast.
May god forgive, help and heal us.
We are oh soooo human after all. All of us.
